Smoke a little weed what? I know you got pounds you smoking on hahaha.
How is the weatiher down under today? Good I hope! It was sunny but fucking cold with strong winds
Want to get on aim in an hour?
Today was very busy and stressful, had to meet with school about pot charges, then looked at apartments and applied for Jobs. That wasn't too stressful, but then I went to see my doctor for a monfhly suboxone script., and that went well got my vyvanse upgraded to from 20mg to 30mg, shea said I could switch to dexedrine ir (which is what I want) next monrth if the vyvanse still didn't feel right. Don't get me wrong I love vyvanse,2@ just love d-amp IR. in addition, I got my Temazepam Increase from 15 to 30mg capsules now which is very Gucci. I need like 60mgs to feel good as fuck. Today I Took 40mg vyvanse, 1,5mg suboxone, 75mg temazepam , 700mg lyrica , smoked hella strong weed, around like 13 cigs (my lungs feel like shit; I love to smoke on amps. ) , and I'm goin to take 50mg hydrozyzine soon
What was stressful was my mom threatened to not pay for my meds, which is fucked up becuae I would get sick because I don't have any income at the moment. Really she was just taunting me because she knows how to pus my buttons, what a cunt. But I love her . She is cool, but has gotten really really gay about drugs and shit. Hbut it'd all good she pay for the temazepam which is cheap as fuck, and she is buying the lyrica and vyvanse
wow. iam sooo glad to hear that you are alive and ok!! i was seriously worried for a sec because usually when ambulance is called, the police come....wait the police came!?!?!? wow, those are some cool fucking cops for not charging you. if they charged you, would that be a violation of parole, like sent to prison for remainder of parole?
please man, take this as a learning lession. if you keep fucking around you will die within the next 7 years. is there any at all that you care about such as girlfriend/boyfriend, a child (daughter or son), family members you are really close to, close friends, even a pet? try to think how devastated they would be if you endeed up dieing from overdose? fuk even hobbies work man, think about the focus on the good times, not the bad! you can define the character of a person by not what they have done, but rather by they overcome!!
i know you feel like your life turned to shit, but i am concerned about your mental health. did you get your manic bipolar meds, do you have any thought of suicide? i know this is really personal and i dont mean to call you out at all, we care for you man, i care. please, pm me if you need to talk or have disturbing thoughts, you need to get that out, and it is hard to trust people, i knnoww. but i totally understad where you are coming from, and i dont mean that is metaphoric way, i mean it in a literal way. i have been there man, you know! while i havent experienced as extreme shit as you, i have experienced very similar simulations. idk what the fuck i am saying, i am rambling and concerened, and i am here man!!
damn man, you have to stop abusing benzos like that! i mean abuse benzos, no lie, but taking 44mg klonopin is extreme, and taking that much isnt exactly addiction, it is running away with drugs, you are using drugs as a crutch to run away form situations. defining addiction is extremely difficult, because people are different: they use different drugs, dosages, ROAs, genetics, metabolisms, ect...
i hope everything is ging well doug!!
may i ask how old you are?? and what college do you go to? i got to UGA. you said you are science major, wht type of science
definition of addiction: doing the same thing over and over knowing how fucked up the result will be...
each..
time.
great quote token!! this definition is sooo fucking true!! idk, what's so wrong with being insane though, it has it;s benefits %)
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how have you been ytoday, any good druugs?
). now just brewed myself one strong motherfuker of a coffee and smoking a cigarette watching the tail end of that Steve Carrell movie, Evan Almight. it's good for a bit of a laff
my father was telling me his brother (my uncle) went there about 20 years back. it's obviously been around for a while.
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