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herbavore said:
Hey, Nate. Welcome. You are a good writer. Do you write at all? Just to do it, I mean.;) I think it is interesting that Switzerland is so progressive in some ways and such a conservative country in others. As far as I know they are the only country that offers voluntary euthanasia--no one else seems willing to touch that but meanwhile they have been offering that for years.
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Thank you. No I don't really write that much, though I read voraciously. Last week I vowed to write at least twice a week but the RLS and insomnia have made me listless. Tomorrow I'm getting back on the 'done so we'll see.
 
Serotonin101 said:
I believe Washington state still offers barbiturates to terminal patients to pretty much keep them doped up til their death. also some hospitals will do morphine overdoses to some dying patients who request it. undocumented but heard it from the mouth of a nurse who did (does) it.
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I believe it's Oregon and Washington. I saw a documentary on it and they gave the guy a hundred Nembutal in a milkshake. Took about 10 minutes very peaceful. Regarding the hospitals I've heard it termed as "terminal sedation", sounds vaguely Orwellian but I'm a proponent of self determination.
 
^It's only Oregon and it is actually quite different from the clinic in Switzerland. You have to be terminally ill in Oregon with less than 6 months to live. You also have to be able and willing to drink the stuff yourself. It tastes horrible but administering it through IV would mean the person doing the administration would actually be killing you. So, you have to be able to raise the cup to your own mouth. There are some doctors that will not prescribe the concoction on moral grounds. My sister actually just lost her best friend to terminal cancer and she chose to go this route rather than suffer any more. It was very hard on my sister as she was the person to mix the drugs and hand the cup to her friend.

In Switzerland by contrast, you can be any age, in any state of health etc. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Euthanasia_in_Switzerland
 
Hi n3o, I'm eyeslikethesun. I've not had to deal w. addiction thanks to the luckier stars that I rely on. My mother, brother, and sister did all the addiction so that I didn't need to! Anyway, why am I here? Not for therapy but to find out information on the toxicity of some of my more aggressive meds such as adderall, bupropion, viibryd, clonazepam, diazepam, zolpidem, tramadol, and tizanadine. I'm looking for dialogue that delves into the excess usage of any one or combination of these antipsychotics/hypnotics/analgesics, etc.

Thanks! ii's
 
eyeslikethesun said:
Hi n3o, I'm eyeslikethesun. I've not had to deal w. addiction thanks to the luckier stars that I rely on. My mother, brother, and sister did all the addiction so that I didn't need to! Anyway, why am I here? Not for therapy but to find out information on the toxicity of some of my more aggressive meds such as adderall, bupropion, viibryd, clonazepam, diazepam, zolpidem, tramadol, and tizanadine. I'm looking for dialogue that delves into the excess usage of any one or combination of these antipsychotics/hypnotics/analgesics, etc.

Thanks! ii's
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Sounds like I need to move to Switzerland.
 
Hi there everybody. I am Kooter, i might have posted already here, but an update is needed since my life continues to go in a downward spiral of despair and depression. I am now officially homeless. I finally got kicked out of Dad's place. Don't have a job so I cannot afford a residence. All other family will not help me at all, because who wants to help a junky who is just going to fuck it up. I am sneaking in my last friends parents garage at night do i have some type of shelter. I have been trying to find work ever since I got out of jail in April, minus the times that I went back to using heroin. You can't look for a job when you are too busy trying to hustle enough for that sack. I tried to be good when i got out but had really bad relationship problems with the woman i love more than life itself. Didn't really see a point in even living without her, let alone living sober. But that was months ago and i am on my way to try and get clean again. By the way, she is back in the picture. So i am now going to a methadone clinic, i see it as a way to quench my opiate desire and still be ok with my probation drug testing. I know methadone is not great, but hopefully now i can look for work and get my life started in the right direction. So i am going to have another shitty Christmas but at least this year i am not in jail. My family won't talk to me yet, but I guess baby steps. Hopefully I will eventually stay clean of opiates at least heroin for now, get a job, get the wife officially back, get respect from the family, stay law biding and get a new residence. I got some goals to shoot for and all i can say, is wish me luck. Thanks. Sorry for the rant.
 
Kooter said:
... but I guess baby steps. Hopefully I will eventually stay clean of opiates at least heroin for now, get a job, get the wife officially back, get respect from the family, stay law biding and get a new residence. I got some goals to shoot for and all i can say, is wish me luck. Thanks. Sorry for the rant.
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Baby steps are powerful once you understand that they are really the only option. It's like math. You can't shoot straight to calculus, you have to start at the most basic and build the foundation. What trips people up is looking around and feeling like everyone else their age is already there which is a misperception. Don't worry about anyone else but you when it comes to taking those steps and you will get wherever you want to be. Good luck and welcome to TDS.<3
 
welcome all new darksiders :) I've been slacking on the welcoming of new comers. I'm happy to see the family growing, and getting better as we help eachother. this place is filled with unconditional love. and I know you will enjoy your stay.
 
i never introduced myself although most of you know me by now i just hope i can be happy and TDS has stopped me from offing myself more than just a couple of times so welcome new comers
 
Cheers,

20 year old Norwegian, started with cannabis in around 10th grade (15year old), and it escalated to heavy abuse, probably done anything you could find on a narcotics list... Been every day high and addicted to cannabis, subutex and amphetamines. OD'ed on rohypnol this summer and been drugclean since and doing NA meetings with great success and changed my fucked up life for the good, got the perfect school grades back, got the dream job, wokring out and doing diet for long time so things are great. Very bad tho i recently flashbacked and doing some amphetamiens again... the only drug i gues i just couldnt let go off... think that part will follow me for the rest of my life...even if i managed to stay off for 10 years i feel it always sneaking upon me. Educated instrument mechanic, electrician and tiler ;)

Also a great party animal, visting hell alot of Sensation, qlimax and defqon1 aswell :)

Happy new year :)
 
Hey there dGS, welcome to Bluelight man!

Feel free to PM any moderator/admin with questions/comments, use that 'report' function where necessary (Little blue exclamation point within a triangle in the upper right hand corner of a post; it really helps when we don't catch everything!) and explore our TDS Directory for good threads to browse through :)

Well wishes,

~ Vaya
 
Made a few posts in this forum already, but I find myself spending most of my time on BL in TDS. Not currently sober, but I've been going in and out of sobriety for 5 years. I know that my lifestyle is not a sustainable one, and I simply can't do alcohol and most drugs in moderation. I am almost certain that I will die before 30 if I don't abstain from use. Anyway, y'all seem like a great group. Hope I can stick around for a bit :)
 
^people I went to rehab with said I probably wouldn't make it to 22. I got 3 weeks to prove them wrong :)
 
pancakepirate said:
Made a few posts in this forum already, but I find myself spending most of my time on BL in TDS. Not currently sober, but I've been going in and out of sobriety for 5 years. I know that my lifestyle is not a sustainable one, and I simply can't do alcohol and most drugs in moderation. I am almost certain that I will die before 30 if I don't abstain from use. Anyway, y'all seem like a great group. Hope I can stick around for a bit :)
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Welcome to TDS!

We're here for you through your journeys of trying to attain sobriety. <3
 
Hey there,
Everyone calls me Ms.Cleo I'm a cross addicted alcoholic. I heard about Blue Light from a friend.
I'm here to learn about different experiences, help people with whatever knowledge I have, keep myself safe,
and hopefully I'll realize I'm not alone.
 
Welcome, Ms. Cleo! You will no doubt realize that not only are you not alone in your experience but that people from all walks of life and different experiences can and do have a lot of empathy here.

@pancakepirate: welcome to you, as well! I have been noticing your posts and wanted to thank you for all the helpful, heartfelt input. I'm sure that you have already helped lots of people out quite a bit.<3
 
^ Thank you so much. Maybe this is my ego, but I'm still transitioning from a binge, so the fact that my participation has been recognized actually means a lot. I just got back from a 3 day rave January 1st and haven't been able to leave my room except to when I have to pee or need some water or something. Actually the only thing I even attempted to do was go scour my car for .5 mg of Xanax my friend dropped in my car the other day, but of course I don't have the energy to shower or do anything even moderately productive that requires physical exertion. Not feeling my best, though it's far from some of my other lows. I'd probably still feel pretty ambivalent about sobriety if I didn't have this particular outlet right now, cause I'm surely not gonna get myself up to go to a meeting in my current state of lethargy. My friends are drug users too, but my best friend and I are both at a point where we don't wanna continue using drugs, but we have a history of getting sucked back into it because our hometown can be a bit of a black hole. Pretty sure if it wasn't for this place, by tomorrow I'd probably wake up and start scrounging up enough change to buy a 40 or heading to my friends to get fronted some benzos or stimulants or whatever I could get. But right now, that's not what I want to do tomorrow. I've been hounding this site cause I can't sleep and don't wanna go outside, but I'm sure y'all know how crucial a 24 or 48 hour window can be. So thank you guys again, seriously. The internet is not a medium I had ever expected to use to find support, but I here I am after lurking this board for over 4 years and only joining recently without the intention of using this sub-forum (joined cause I wanted to ask about 2cb and not actually use the forum), but I got sucked in. How fortuitous, hehe. :)

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Hello all, I found this forum and this board and its perfect for me..

from the moment i had my first drink at age 13 i knew that was the feeling i had been waiting for my whole disturbed life. at that time... fast forward 30 plus years and now i quit drinking as it was just too bad for me.. had 3 sober years, then got into rx and other drugs.. now i am ill with medical problems. hiv hep c, ect, back problems. real ones... discs ruptured and bones bad from hiv meds.. so i need pain meds but like my brain when i am clean.... so i can relate to this board.. I am thinking of changing my med on Monday to oxy40 3x and oxy 30mg IR to add exalgo to the mix due to tolerance. just wanted to introduce myself
 
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