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i'm freaking out i tried to get an extra xanax pill per day from my doctor and he said no and i was kinda out of it when i saw him and i think he might cut me off my meds if he does i don't know what i'm liable to do
 
ok i'm feeling a little better but still concerned my doctor wants me to see a psychiatrist to go over the meds i'm on and i'm afraid that the psychiatrist will tell my doctor that i'm on way too high of doses of medications and my doctor could cut me back drastically but fingers crossed that everything goes off with out a hitch and i can stay where i'm at with my meds if so then i'll be very happy and my doctor is referring me to a psychologist so thats good
 
mrflowers00 said:
ok i'm feeling a little better but still concerned my doctor wants me to see a psychiatrist to go over the meds i'm on and i'm afraid that the psychiatrist will tell my doctor that i'm on way too high of doses of medications and my doctor could cut me back drastically but fingers crossed that everything goes off with out a hitch and i can stay where i'm at with my meds if so then i'll be very happy and my doctor is referring me to a psychologist so thats good
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Best of luck man! I hope you receive the best in terms of your anxiety/pain treatment. :)

DrugFuckedNZ said:
Be thankful for drugs etc, if it wasn't for that I believe most of us would have offed ourselves ages ago, if we had the guts or motivation....food for thought?
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That's one way to think about it. Another way is to be thankful for ourselves and our personal strength, as unfortunately too many drug users end up dead, either intentionally or unintentionally, from an overdose or the circumstances regarding their use.

I am thankful for drugs, especially in the sense the last time I received an antibiotic, it was absolutely necessary for me to get better. I don't know what I would have done without amoxicillin.
 
things can get better have you tried seeing a doctor and a psychologist they may be able to help you they've help me some instead of getting reddy to kill myslef i'm just gonna lean back a see what happens not saying if theres a bullet coming i'm dodging but i'm not gonna kill myself just don't care enough to stop someone else form killing me
 
Things can get better, things can get worse.
Things are, when you are.

If things have no value, you have have no value.



I understand that I can always opt out when things get worse. I know it's possible for me to continue, hell, it's even likely. I also know it's possible for me to leave now.
It's not the mere possibility that is my problem, but my desire for such.
I'm trying to grasp any conceivable thing I might value, and I'm having trouble.
I'm lacking things, and I can't attain them.
The thought of attaining these things means a lot right now, whilst meaning fuck all.

Again with the opposites. The final opposite I will experience is death.
 
do you have any one you love who loves you back that right there is why i'm still alive family girl friend/wife freind whatever all of that is what keeps me going
 
"Death is easy. Life is hard." I've heard this quote many times, but it's bullshit. Before I start, let me say that I've lost friends to suicide. Maybe taking your own life seems like the right thing to do, but come on, it's the most selfish thing you could ever possibly do in your entire life. I'm NOT one to troll, or to make anyone's situation seem like nothing. You can read any of my other posts and I'm the most understanding person in the world, but suicide? Not the answer. When I was 16, I had a friend who was picked on, shit on, and everything in-between. You'd thing that no one would have been at his funeral. But I'll tell you riht now, even the people that picked on him were there that day.

Not only that, but think about it. You are one person. A person that can change your life if you choose to do so. Yes, that may be hard to do... but do it. If you keep trying life, you may go through some hard times, but trust me, you WILL make it. But if you choose to give up and just die... not only are you taking the pussy way out, you are choosing to make EVERYONE who EVER cared about you go into mourning. Their lives will never be the same.... trust me.

I promise, I'm not trying to come off sounding like an asshole, but every life is worth saving and everyone deserves a second, third, or even a fourth chance! Don't give up! Life is too beautiful and precious to just end it because you've had a bad day, week, or ever decade! There were points in my addiction where I begged God or whatever was out there to just let me die and let it be over with, but now I have the job I've alway wanted, and I love my life!

YOU ARE WORTH IT! And don't let anyone tell you otherwise!
 
failed attempts and blackouts...

Thursday night in2 friday morning, I had made multiple suicide attempts while completely blacked out..I've nevr had a blackout.. I slit my wrist, made a noose in my closet, and apparently ate a whole bottle of sleeping pills..got behind the wheel and had 2 accidents that I have no memory of..I'm sorry I woke up from this nightmare.. Even though, I have no memory of any of it, I feel so stupid. I hope if there is a next time, it works.. I'm so damn pathetic.
 
Ya I fucked up royally..I just wish the car I smashed wouldve been my own and not some1 elses..I apparently went in2 work on my off day,w/ 2 different shoes on.. I'm a living nightmare
 
^sconnie, that sounds like a horrible night. :( I'm so glad you're still with us though. Please remember that you do have a lot of people who care for you here and you help so many. Losing you would be devastating to so many. I'm always here if you want to talk, hun. <3
 
It was horrible. I don't remember any of it, so I guess that's kind of a blessing.. But thnx hun. <3 i will def. Use my em if I get bad.. Hope ur doing well..
 
I'm so disappointed in myself....

I was clean, off the needle, for 6 days. Withdrawals were hell obviously but I was able to ease them up with some OTC stuff, relaxation, tea, my kitties and TV. So I went out today to work and did some grocery shopping. I woke up feeling so HAPPY, naturally happy having been clean for 6 days... But I failed by using. My line of thought was basically "If I feel this great without drugs, ill feel 10000x better with them!" No...all I feel like is a failure. How did I get myself in this fucking mess??? How the hell do I get out? I'm so sick of living like this and living for my drugs, planning my life around them. I just want to give the fuck up with my life and everything. Fuck school. Fuck my job. Who cares if people will miss me? I'm more of a burden than a blessing. Fuck everything!
 
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