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Heroin Balloons and Stuff

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I'm married to an opiate addict. I'm no stranger to drugs, addiction and using...the only thing I have not used is H, but my husband has used H plenty of times. This post may be too wordy and may not cut to the chase like it should, so I appologize beforehand. :)

Over the past month or so, I have ran across some stuff that I am not quite sure of. My addict husband has tendencies to lie about his use, so when confronted about it, he does not accept any responsibility. Even if I am cool with it and things are fine, he still lies and becomes defensive and angry. Hence my reason for posting this. I am not looking for any bashing or negative responses. I'm just looking for a little more insight from others out there.

The other day, I saw some tied up balloon ends in his "pill stash box" and a few weeks ago I saw one bright blue empty balloon "tip" sitting on top of the bathroom trash (the tied end of the balloon had been cut off). I examined the empty balloon tip, turning it inside out, thinking "why the fuck is a little balloon tip in the bathroom trash?"...there was no smell or visible residue, but the inside of the balloon was sticky. Later when I saw the tied up balloon ends in his stash box, it all came together and my heart sunk. I didnt say anything about it, but he could tell that something was on my mind. A few hours later, I looked inside the box and noticed that he had removed the balloon ends from the box. What's up with the balloons? Could he be scoring H?

Another day, I saw two folds of heavy paper in his stash box. One was empty. The other had what looked like a good tight compact dark bud in it. I'm the pothead around here, but I had a feeling there was something fishy going on so I took it. I noticed that he was freaking a little bit looking for something later on, but he never asked me about it. I overheard him asking his friend about it, but it was all secretive code talk LOL.
Well after I took it, I pinched some of it off, topped my packed bowl with it, and smoked it. It was not pot, like I thought. I have no idea what it is. The color of it has changed from the dark brown/black/purple color to a more light color and kind of grayed out. The texture is hard and brittle enough to sprinkle it. At first, the texture was the consistancy of a really compact bud, hard enough to pinch/break a piece off but not brittle enough to sprinkle. I'm still pinching some off and sprinkling it on my bowls every now and then. I still have enough to smoke a little more. I get a high, but its a different kind of high than I've had before. The smell and taste is not pot. It's almost sweet. What could this be? How could I find out without asking him?

Now, over this timeframe, he has been very fatigued and unmotivated. Sleeping ALOT! Not feeling well ALOT! Seemingly emotinallly numb ALOT! Sweating ALOT! Behind on all of his bills. Personal hygene not top on his list. Calling into work ALOT! Hanging with those fair weather addict friends ALOT! Over the past month, he has been DOWN everyday except for two days when he was SO rediculously UP UP UP. I know these are the signs of using and it can suck a little bit at home being in this situation.

Any thoughts...What does all of this smell like to you guys?
thanks kyndly~~
<3
 
From what you say about him being ill a lot, phoning in sick at work, behind on paying bulls etc. then to me that definetly sounds like he could well be using heroin.
 
he has trouble going to the bathroom alot too. but that could be from him taking morphine sulfate and percocet daily. the dr just took him off percs and gave him oxymorphone. i dont know if the change in meds has anything to do with any of it.

the balloons..that's what's throwing me off
 
Balloon tips are either heroin or if you are west of the mississippi its probably that new krokodile shit or whatever they call it these days from russia, look it up
 
wonderful question and i have no idea why the fuck! But if he's scoring skag and using it, then i'd hope he was halfway smart enough to cut back or not take his OM and morphine daily. i kept an eye on his pills and it doesnt look like he's been taking as many as he normally does, but i could be wrong. i do know that he's also been recently scoring liquid methadone once or twice a week. All of this just sounds so fuckin' outta wack..i didnt think you could really mix done, H, OM, and morphine..he has no idea that i know about all of this...when addicts are active, nothing else really seems to matter. I dont take any of these because they make me sick to my stomach.
 
^^ Please go easy on him, as I was/am an opiate addict, but thanks to 2 yrs of methadone, I haven't used in in over 10 yrs...it sounds like he has 1 hell of a habit...but in reality, he probably likes the rush from injected opiates (who doesn't)...and you can't inject (effectively/safely) Opana or MSContin, so he's probably not combining them much (unless he's taking them orally before injecting to boost the feeling/duration).
But if he's using heroin, tell him he REALLY should save his pain meds for when he's out/can't score..he'll be sooo glad he did!
 
If he gets morphine and OM daily then he shouldn't be sick ever..unless he is abusing it and running out sooner than intended.
 
That is incredibly dangerous, especially 4 of the most potent opiates available (dillies/fent excluded) - I sincerely hope he doesn't drink or take benzos!
 
epiks said:
If he gets morphine and OM daily then he shouldn't be sick ever..unless he is abusing it and running out sooner than intended.
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ohhh he gets sick...about 2 weeks before he's supossed to run out, every month...he is very isolated and gets "the flu"...i never seem to catch that flu bug (haha)

do you suppose the shit i took out of his stash box is herion?
i smoked some of it mixed with my bud. the high was a different kind of high. what would it taste like, look like, burn like, etc? I have a little piece left.

soundphaRm said:
^^ Please go easy on him, as I was/am an opiate addict, but thanks to 2 yrs of methadone, I haven't used in in over 10 yrs...it sounds like he has 1 hell of a habit...but in reality, he probably likes the rush from injected opiates (who doesn't)...and you can't inject (effectively/safely) Opana or MSContin, so he's probably not combining them much (unless he's taking them orally before injecting to boost the feeling/duration).
But if he's using heroin, tell him he REALLY should save his pain meds for when he's out/can't score..he'll be sooo glad he did!
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ohh i do go easy on him (probably too easy). i was his rock when he kicked methadone cold fucking turkey (after taking more than 100mg for about 5 years)! now that was hell for him and i wasnt letting him turn back. he's an addict and i know it. he is also a human being whom i love so dearly. i never give him any shit. i'm always understanding (or try to empathize). if i find needles, stems etc, i've learned to just toss 'em in the trash and dont say a word to him about it.
he's been running this addiction show for most of his life..been through rehab, hit rock bottom. now i think he's just trying to figure out how to have self control over the urges. and how to keep the bad people outta his life. i must say the fucker loves that good euphoric rush (and i dont blame him for loving it).
i dont tell him how to administer his drugs (we've tried that and it didnt work very friendly)...he knows if he runs out, he's sick. he knows if he combines too much, he's sick.
i dont know if he's using H or not, but i have a pretty good gut feeling that he is toying around with it.
 
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The balloons are used by dealers to store small amounts of heroin, traditionally so they can swallow the heroin if they encounter any cops. The balloon (hopefully) isn't metabolized, so they don't die from the heroin and can vomit/pass it to retrieve their drugs if they so desire.
 
memphis10 said:
if you are west of the mississippi its probably that new krokodile shit or whatever they call it these days from russia, look it up
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This is just not true.

@OP it's really important that you stop smoking whatever it is you stole from your husband.

We do not do substance identification here on Bluelight as it generates nothing more than speculation which isn't helpful.
 
I strongly recommend you read some good books on addiction so you can better understand your husband. One of my favourites is In The Realm of Hungry Ghosts by Dr Gabor Mate.

Please don't use random drugs you stole from your husband without knowing what they are. That could be very dangerous as you have no idea what the effects will be, what is a safe dose, or what other drugs etc it could be dangerous in combination with.

Maybe you should try talking to him in an extremely kind and non-judgmental way instead of just taking or throwing out his stash or paraphernalia and not mentioning it to him. He is probably very afraid and ashamed to talk to you about it. If you can make him feel comfortable being honest and make him feel that he will be loved no matter what, that may go a long way toward helping him. I noticed you said he kicked methadone cold-turkey and you "weren't letting him turn back". Stopping methadone cold-turkey probably let him right back to using heroin and "not letting him turn back" probably made him feel like he couldn't go back on methadone or be honest with you about his addiction. He has to be ready to quit; supporting him does not mean "not letting him" use. It means unconditional support for whatever he wants to do and however he wants to do it. Best of luck to you both <3
 
memphis10 said:
Joke dude we all know what it is
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Maybe through a wink in there then since it's hard to pick up on sarcasm on here. You have to consider that this thread was started by someone who is concerned about their husbands drug use, so they aren't likely to pick up on any jokes here, nor expect them in a serious thread like this.

Just saying...
 
^This, OD is a harm reduction focus forum memphis10...
Swimmingdancer said:
I strongly recommend you read some good books on addiction so you can better understand your husband. One of my favourites is In The Realm of Hungry Ghosts by Dr Gabor Mate.

Please don't use random drugs you stole from your husband without knowing what they are. That could be very dangerous as you have no idea what the effects will be, what is a safe dose, or what other drugs etc it could be dangerous in combination with.

Maybe you should try talking to him in an extremely kind and non-judgmental way instead of just taking or throwing out his stash or paraphernalia and not mentioning it to him. He is probably very afraid and ashamed to talk to you about it. If you can make him feel comfortable being honest and make him feel that he will be loved no matter what, that may go a long way toward helping him. I noticed you said he kicked methadone cold-turkey and you "weren't letting him turn back". Stopping methadone cold-turkey probably let him right back to using heroin and "not letting him turn back" probably made him feel like he couldn't go back on methadone or be honest with you about his addiction. He has to be ready to quit; supporting him does not mean "not letting him" use. It means unconditional support for whatever he wants to do and however he wants to do it. Best of luck to you both <3
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this is what i failed to find words to communicate <3 good luck OP report back and let us know how things go.
 
you really tried his "random drugs" damn you got balls thats not safe. Id take whats left and put it on foil as if you were gonna smoke it , but just run it down see how it smells and if it burns quickly (no more than speculation which we're not to be doing). first few times I smoked H on top of pot it just made me feel "extra" stoned, but it always felt like id taken some opiate/opoid pills when i did that.

You are best off just talking to him and being there for him, ive be on opiates/opiods for over 10 years and meth over 10 years, it sure as fuck aint easy, i still take opis almost daily, and I'll get like .25-.5g meth weekly which lasts me at least 4 days if I choose to do it, I went from fuct up heroin addict to still using(pills/fent gel) but being part time user ( and all my bills & responsibilities are taken care of first)

Myself I dont have time to get sick I have over 100 homes to be Lord of the land over (manage not own, so I have way less money) if I gotta keep the rental income($45k per month), I'd easily support a 200-300$ a day habit of any sort
sorry rambling again on another forum :( havent had anyone to talk to lately
 
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