Bupe saved and is still saving my life. Seriously. laC we've been through a lot of the same shit man. Roxi's, IV/Insufflated Heroin, ect.
I had to keep using to avoid wd and drop positive for opiates/heroin. I went out with a bang on insufflating 40mg of oxymorphone.
The sub doc prescribed 16mg (8mg strip 2x daily) and 900 gabapentin for my anxiety disorder and benzodiazepine addiction (prescibed) and recreational.
I currently stick to my subs anywhere from 2mg to ~8mg daily. Gabapentin does wonders for anxiety and mood disorders, but I do use recreational drugs like ketamine, marijuana daily, benzodiazepines (clonazepam, alprazolam, diazepam), classic psychedelics (especially lsd and when around, mushrooms), empathogenics (lately RC's bk-mdma/methylone, mdai combos, 5-IAI ect.) to switch things up and forget about cravings. Not recommended for the sake of HR, just my choice and method. I'm not a drinker really, so that doesn't fly with me, but it makes cravings worse sometimes, even for IV cocaine.