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How are you in one word? v. flying purple elephants

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zonked....was up for 12 hours, then slept for 2 hours from 10 to midnight...then went down town to party, and i just got home at 5am...
 
@ motherofearth: I had to miss tons of Phish shows because I knew they would be too tempting. I knew they would just be way to triggering. I have been to a few concerts recently and have been fine. Give it time.

Me I feel:

Weird

I am trying to go without my Suboxone dose today (tapered down to .25, year long slow taper) and have taken Clonidine and Atarax so my body feels slow and weak. The plan is to try to alternate on and off days for a little bit. I am not putting pressure on myself and if I do end up taking a half dose I will not feel like its a failure. I took my last dose early morning yesterday so it has been 24 hours without.

At the same time I am very proud of myself for doing this. I know I need to force myself to eat some breakfast.
 
DERBYSIEG!!!

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Phactor, I hope today goes easy on you <3. Take care of yourself.

I'm tired today. It's a rainy gloomy day and I don't feel like doing anything.
 
Impatient, but not for long. Hitting up a mexican wedding with the girlfriend, gonna be a good night full of tacos.
 
Totaly and utterly lost
my world has just been literaly turned upsidedown. As hard as i try theres always a spanner somewhere waiting to be thrown in the gears the moment im feeling true improvement.
 
self-satisfied... for some reason, a facility owned by my employer was rented out for a rave. [likely because its just a drill hall and the regimental association of the controlling unit gets the $$ for that] in any event, I was placed there to oversee the general security of it, and some hot girl randomly comes up to me as I'm working and starts making out with me.

Excellent boost for the ego!
 
omen_owen mk2 said:
I'll.

What the fuck. 10 days since I stopped my methadone and i seem to be getting worse not better.
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Remember that its only ten days, my friend. I realize that seems like forever, experientially, but in the big picture things will make a rather startling turn-around. Have faith and stick with it! :)

~ Vaya
 
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