Benzos, SSRI-meds, possibly some anti-psychotics, all of which I turn down, except benzos so I can have them just in case. Medical marijuana is super tightly controlled here, it only comes in the form of Bedrocan and it costs more than just buying it from the street anyway. They won't even offer any therapy (they'd pay for it) unless they're pleased with my urine. I feel like I could really benefit from some type of stimulant medication but that's a big no no to them because of my cannabis use which I'd be willing to give up if they'd atleast try and see if stimulants help me but they just rather put me on disability pension which is something I don't want.
The reason I'm seeing the doctors in the first place is that my (main) problems are depression (comes and goes), anxiety, concentration/attention, sleeping, and some behavioural things often associated with ADHD like impulsiveness (I'm into gambling, losing what little I have in online poker pff) even though I'm more of an ADD person. I just want to study and get a degree, but I feel I'm unable to, properly atleast... I self medicate with weed, helps getting through depressive periods, anxiety and insomnia but it isn't really enabling me to study. There's a whole lot of stuff I could write about this, been a "victim of the system" for something like 7-8 years now but this really ain't the place to rant
