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Nah just kidding though, my parents are alright if only a bit tweaked. Father is a total loner, peculiar guy and mother is on the verge of neurotic and overprotective but warm-hearted. I guess I have nothing to complain about really. Except the fact that their extremely polar personalities are also inside of me and they clash. And its fucking weird.

Man, I can so totally relate, except my dad is getting a bit more mellow in his older age. My mom has exactly those traits, to the T. It can be a bit much sometimes. Being around her is edgy, but if I don't talk to her in too long of a time I get anxious phone calls or e-mails asking if I'm okay, want to hear your voice again, etc. I'm very independent and she's very overprotective. I think there's a Pink Floyd song about it. ;)

Nice tatts BTW. I'm scared by the size of your arms though. I thought you were a skinny twerp like most of us, I wasn't expecting that. Online perceptions and stuff.

Check out this article, it's pretty far out. Russians resurrect 30000 year old frozen flower/

Damn weird Russians. I'm still befuddled as to why they insist on keeping around a 90 year old disgusting corpse. Talk about communist materialism. At least religions have their stuff in books. Communism feels this need to keep corpses around to keep their 'religion' alive. I'm interested in what happens after the election. IMO Putin's done a nice job of making Russia look democratic but he's a dictator of an autocracy. It's the same old system.

I once gave up obedience for lent. Relocating to North East Europe within 2 months, oh joy =D

I'm going to continue to try to give up pre-marital abstinence for lent. ;)

No vow of celibacy needed when it gets pushed upon you. :p

I just busted out my Nintendo 64 for the first time in forever. Been rocking Goldeneye and Cruisin' USA pretty hard. I just got rid of my 360 because I never played it, making the N64 my newest console. I play the Super Nintendo all the time though. I have never really stopped playing it since 1991-1992.

I got mine out at home too, I seem to have lost half the games and the second controller. I remedied it though; there's a torrent kicking around (Project64); it's an emulator with 302 games. It works amazing and I control it with an xbox360 controller for computer. It's not quite as authentic but the 302 games.. :D

I've been playing some Goldeneye, Diddy Kong Racing, and 1080. I've also got an NES emulator (JNES) that I've been playing Super Mario Bros. 3 on. Playing those awesome games is so much better than super expensive graphics of the new era. :)

Today I had a lovely reminder of why I always hated Catholic liturgy as a youngster. Jeez, you'd think these people would be familiar with Matthew 6:7 "But when ye pray, use not vain repetitions, as the heathen do: for they think that they shall be heard for their much speaking." The passive sitting there and listening is lame too, but not surprising given these people take myths with spiritual lessons as literal truth (well they're not literalists on the level of some Prostestant groups, but believing any particular religion's narrative as THE truth strikes me as silly. I'm all Gnostic about things though, what do I know, I shouldn't criticize people who choose the path of Faith rather than mystic communion with That Which Is). I did get some nice soup and stuff though, so it was a productive outing.

Haha, ya, whenever I go to church anymore it just reminds me of why I stopped going. I feel you on the Protestant thing. Most Catholics aren't so hardcore. A friend of mine in college in the same program (biotech no less), was an ardent CRC'er (Christian Reform Church, sort of Presbyterian) and was dead set on creationism. When we were talking about it and she let it out I was flabbergasted that she took it as solid fact, I just said "Oh come on *name*" and she just gave me a 'look' and then we changed the subject.

Organized religion is weird, it's all cults IMO. I'm not an atheist, but I just live by my moral code, believe in a higher power and there's my religion. All that chanting and reciting scripture just creeps me out and is superficial as can be.

I just got back from reading week. Got two days of snowboarding in, my new board is a rocket. It's long, basically the expert length for my weight/height. It handles so well. Icy double black diamonds were no problem. Two days of flying down steep icy runs and not a single moment of losing control of falling. I was very impressed. I spent 250 bones on the second hand, mint condition board/binding/boots, easily 600 new. The guy only had it out 6 times, I won't be selling it until it's worn out, broken, or they invent jet-boards ;)

After that I went home and did a bunch of nothing for the rest of the week. I had an amazing MDAI experience. All the empathy and euphoria of MDMA without the tweak and it has a comparatively mild comedown. There's some serotonin depletion but considering the experience I had, it's a wonderful drug. I have no idea why it's not that popular. I very much prefer it to MDMA itself, so calm, mellow, euphoric. Perfect drug. I will be revisiting soon. :)
 
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It could also be the flavonones, lemons and limes have different makeups in their flavinone contents: http://www.ars.usda.gov/SP2UserFiles...19_S74-S80.pdf

While that was a bit dry/beyond me to read with incredible thoroughness (I did read the whole thing though, only in PD social could I be induced to read an article on the flavanone content various citrus fruit), they seem fairly similar in content, Eriocitrin content being the biggest difference numerically (though lemons also had small amounts of those other ones...). In the end, I know less than nothing about flavanones or their properties so whatevs.

Pain in back mellowed somewhat (possibly due to measures taken by me to avoid it), but now there's more in the sides...hmmm.
 
I'm going to continue to try to give up pre-marital abstinence for lent. ;)

No vow of celibacy needed when it gets pushed upon you. :p
I like the way you think :)
Don't just give us that yo dawg stuff, is citrus the most awesome genus of fruiting trees or isn't it?

It is 'cause the diversity of fruits, though if we're talking best individual fruit, Avocado obviously wins. IMO anyway.
*like* Fuck yes!
 
Citrus is the best.
In other news, i'mma be gettin some heron soon
Pics:
Heron.jpg

idk how diggitys fit these in stamp bags
 
^ Lovely bird. :)


I had a pretty awesome dream last night (they are a rare treat, usually my dreams are frustrating). I dreamt that I was standing in this little alcove in a wall of rock, which was facing a giant open grassy meadow, over rolling hills. And apparently it was during some sort of mass goose migration, because what seemed like tens of thousands of geese, as far as the eye could see, came raining from the skies and crowded on the open meadow. It struck me as breathtakingly beautiful, to see these graceful creatures in such a fantastic number, and I was overwhelmed with joy.


EDIT: just realized the bird-synchronicity. Double-awesome.
 
^ Lovely bird. :)


I had a pretty awesome dream last night (they are a rare treat, usually my dreams are frustrating). I dreamt that I was standing in this little alcove in a wall of rock, which was facing a giant open grassy meadow, over rolling hills. And apparently it was during some sort of mass goose migration, because what seemed like tens of thousands of geese, as far as the eye could see, came raining from the skies and crowded on the open meadow. It struck me as breathtakingly beautiful, to see these graceful creatures in such a fantastic number, and I was overwhelmed with joy.


EDIT: just realized the bird-synchronicity. Double-awesome.

Frustrating dreams shouldn't exist when lucid dreaming is possible :)
 
freehugs said:
Frustrating dreams shouldn't exist when lucid dreaming is possible

Non-lucid dreaming is underrated, the good and the bad. Not that I mind lucidity, it's quite nice (if not frustrating at times when the things I try to do fail).

Like last night for instance, I had a dream where my knowledge of booze in some situation led to my being transported to a bar in a blank white void, where I was made a cocktail by the Bartender from a comic/show who always makes drinks with meaning specific to the customer's situation and ends up resolving whatever issue they're going through with it. I remember half the ingredients used in it, and have some vague ideas about the other (and they do go together, there are quite a few possibilities) so now I have a new found goal in life to find my dream cocktail for it's significance to myself. I'll know it when I taste it. Haha, I feel like it's something a character in Journey to the East would come up with, with their allegorical goals. I had the dream on Leap Day to boot! Haha.

In other news, back is doing a lot better today, hoping that tomorrow I will be able to go out and about. Being stuck inside (and dealing with pain) for five days has stressed me out to no end. I'm gettin' eye twitches and horrible restless energy and irritability. I really want a damn drink (or opiate or dissociative).
 
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LSDMDMA&10373158 said:
Citrus is the best.
In other news, i'mma be gettin some heron soon
Pics:
Heron.jpg

idk how diggitys fit these in stamp bags

be care ful man, if i remember correctly it wasnt but a year ago when i was trolling PD, you were saying all you like was amps tabs and acid (hence your user name i guess)

not trying to tell you what to do or anything, just be easy
 
Yay, more 4-HO-DPT. 1,5 gram should be enough for a couple of years. Still one of the most, if not the most underrated tryptamine to date (as well as 4-AcO-DPT but their essentially the same).

Tomorrow's time for some more serious tripping after a little break. 4-HO-MIPT, I'm thinking of 25 mg, will maybe add some MXE when the trip starts to fade. I'm halfway through writing a trip report of 50 mg 4-HO-MIPT. It was never the intention to take that much, but there were really strange pecualarities about the quality. But all the 50 mg hit me at one point and oh boy, it was my most intense trip on a single drug so far in my life.

Edit: Decided to post the trip report, a bit short but I don't really know what to add anymore to it.
 
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peppersocks to solipsis said:
Nice tatts BTW.
yes is true, is tasteful. i had a friend who has a huxley quote tattoed massively on her arm. good quote but hella tacky font ... just didnt know what to say ... other times she displays such good taste, too ?
peppersocks said:
Organized religion is weird, it's all cults IMO.
amen ! went to church as a child, was dragged. revisited once recently, curiosity, noticed more .....
peppersocks said:
All the empathy and euphoria of MDMA without the tweak
T McKenna said " you can't take the A out of MDMA " however i think you can't take the MA out of MDMA ...
never knows said:
The area where I live used to be mostly citrus groves back in the day, now it's solid suburbs
:(

also, what highonlife said above
 
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be care ful man, if i remember correctly it wasnt but a year ago when i was trolling PD, you were saying all you like was amps tabs and acid (hence your user name i guess)

not trying to tell you what to do or anything, just be easy
Hes only gonna do it once (if at all) and trade the rest for Meth :|
 
LMAs still saying hes going to do some hard drugs, seems time freezes when I leave ;)

Sup yall fools!? :) Hope all is peaceful with everyone. I've had some un-fun stuff go down recently, besides the big break up both my dad and brother have been taken to the ER and hospitalized within two weeks. But I still haven't snapped, no drugs still. Unless you count the extra suboxone I took today, can hardly call that a high though haha.

I think I posted this already but check out the latest of my finished music!
 
be care ful man, if i remember correctly it wasnt but a year ago when i was trolling PD, you were saying all you like was amps tabs and acid (hence your user name i guess)

not trying to tell you what to do or anything, just be easy
you were trolling PD?
thats still mostly true, but due to lack of funds its been mostly amps now.
this is part of a scheme of mine is all.
wat it do jatty jat?
this time its real bro
i popped the hard drog cherry a few months back.
not with heron tho
tweaky hit the nail on the head actually lololol.
except i'm getting a tiny bit for myself that i'm doing, and i should hopefully get 2 highs out of that.
then never again, unless i iz gettin meth out of it again.
jatty you like hippity hop right?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T7s9A71d92k
the best white rapper ever
 
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The feeling I get from LM&A is something like:

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*Sigh* I'm being quite silly and I gotta say: pathetic, riding or chasing MPH even if that means raiding my roommate (who is also my dearest friend)s meds. They are extra/surplus at least of those up until now... I'm positive. The dude lost like more than 60 of em somehow and it definitely wasn't my doing.

I should expect him to be more worried about me than about himself and crossing the line taking without asking.... not that there is an excuse but let's just say we can call it even now since he raided my K (absolutely out of the blue since he had been straight edging for real, was drunk though) a while back. Still doesn't feel the same: I left that K in his care for safety, it was still mine of course but rather than a medicine at this point it wouldn't be entirely wrong to consider it a poison.

Also this last weekend was heavy and intense so definitely not a good way to recover, putting my functioning at risk, sleepless nights etc, and a sports injury to top it off :\ Last week I had a friendly inside/gym soccer match (not sure what its called) straining myself, then doing martial arts training at home since there was almost no training recently, pulled both my adductors or something i.e. top part of insides of legs / groin. No idea if it's the muscle or tendons or whatever....

It's good that I will be spending the weekend at my parents to re evaluate and rest so that I can put in effort to keep doing well like I have been the last 2 months or so up until recently.

Leading a much more active, positive and meaningful life has shown me how great that is... overenthousiasm is risky for me, that much I have demonstrated repeatedly. So it's back to healthy balance and sustainability!

There's a very interesting party coming up in like 2-3 weeks but I already feel the risks that come with it. I think it will be an excellent choice to take something like clean acid or synthetic mescaline so that it will not fuck me up but it has even much more potential to be magical than hedonistic drugs of abuse.

More later...
 
Realized I could return stupid electronic toothbrush I got as gift for $5 (I only trust manual), but dude at liquor store gave me second cheapest vodka rather than cheapest so I didn't have any left for soda to drown it out in. I really don't like vodka...messin' around with household ingredients to make it palatable so I can become drunk (for first time since february sixthish I believe).

llama said:
you were trolling PD?

He must have meant trawling.
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Hey 'jat! You should come on here more often, we miss ya, or at least I do. Glad your sobriety is working out so far. Your song can't be dub(step) though, because that shit sucks, and I actually like your lil' piece.

Edit: Winning recipe for shit vodka palatability: Vodka, water, sugar, pomegranate molasses, jam-e-shirin.

*snip*

Camellia petals
strewn helter-skelter like words
from a drunkard's mouth
 
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I don't know why I'm doing this. I'm seriously very, very stupid. I already wrote earlier in this thread to stay clear of stimulants. That decision lasted until yesterday, and today I've taken a little MPA at work because I slept badly and was so tired. Stimulants in small doses are just so functional. There's no problem being at work now, I feel more self-confident and serve our clients and customers even better than when sober. Stimulants are just so addictive and moreish for me and I have a seriously addictive mind, no drug that has an addictive profile suit me. Even MXE, which I love, I have to store at my friend and just take some 100 mg from there every now and then. If I'd stored all my 15g MXE at home, I'd do it every evening. This has happened before so I know how it goes.

I should just stick to tryptamines (and occassionally MXE) but I continuously seem to do "dirty" drugs which pisses me off greatly. My self-control is piss poor.

Edit: LSDMDMA&AM, you seem to be one who really likes meth and speed (d-amp). What do you think about coke and crack? I've never tried crack, it's not even available in Europe. Well, at least I've never heard of it being available in Europe. Probably just a good thing. Crack seems to be an American thing, just like speed seems to be a European thing. Coke I have to admit I like, but I don't really do it anymore. Poor quality and ridiculously expensive here.
 
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Hey 'jat! You should come on here more often, we miss ya, or at least I do. Glad your sobriety is working out so far. Your song can't be dub(step) though, because that shit sucks, and I actually like your lil' piece.

It's probably closer to dubstep than most of the things you recognize as dubstep, like Skrillex etc. I'm not a total Skrillex hater I just don't think he fits the bill for dubstep.

Thanks man :) I'll try and remember to check in a bit more often. I spend a lot of time makin music and playing GTA IV now days :D.
 
I don't know why I'm doing this. I'm seriously very, very stupid. I already wrote earlier in this thread to stay clear of stimulants. That decision lasted until yesterday, and today I've taken a little MPA at work because I slept badly and was so tired. Stimulants in small doses are just so functional. There's no problem being at work now, I feel more self-confident and serve our clients and customers even better than when sober. Stimulants are just so addictive and moreish for me and I have a seriously addictive mind, no drug that has an addictive profile suit me. Even MXE, which I love, I have to store at my friend and just take some 100 mg from there every now and then. If I'd stored all my 15g MXE at home, I'd do it every evening. This has happened before so I know how it goes.

I should just stick to tryptamines (and occassionally MXE) but I continuously seem to do "dirty" drugs which pisses me off greatly. My self-control is piss poor.

Edit: LSDMDMA&AM, you seem to be one who really likes meth and speed (d-amp). What do you think about coke and crack? I've never tried crack, it's not even available in Europe. Well, at least I've never heard of it being available in Europe. Probably just a good thing. Crack seems to be an American thing, just like speed seems to be a European thing. Coke I have to admit I like, but I don't really do it anymore. Poor quality and ridiculously expensive here.
never done cocaine, cant afford it.
but crystal meth clan aint nothin to fuck wit.
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wot lol
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wots that supposed to mean
 
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