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  • BDD Moderators: Keif’ Richards

The BDD Social & Information Booth v17 - Bewildered? Drugged? Discuss.

Good mornin' folks :)

Had myself .3 of good MDMA powder last night, quite a nice time. At least barring the ~20 minutes after the fire alarm went off hahaha. /facepalm

If I smoked ciggs I wouldn't care - it was like an arranged smoking break. In 15* weather while we're all sweaty from dancing...
 
anyone else tend to clean their flat when they smoke?
I don't always do it bu today just seems like a good day to do so
going to finish a half smoked joint, have a shower, and then straighten my place up a bit.
 
I get down on opiates. Anything else doesn't motivate me at all. Even speed just makes me a jittery-sit-in-one-spot-and-talk mess. Cocaine is the only stim I actually enjoy, and even get stuff done haha. Weed? Oh hell no. Hello Xbox is more like it! Might actually go play some Forza4. Still can't get Live working until tomorrow, but at least a) it's warmer downstairs, and b) Forza is good fun off-line.

God I wish I could find some fucking opiates right now...

My muscle relaxers and kpins keep me sane, but barely, and that's the latter more-so. Wish I had some extras today, but alas I do not. :( 5 more days w/ 1.25mg... argh.
 
mgrady3 said:
anyone else tend to clean their flat when they smoke?
I don't always do it bu today just seems like a good day to do so
going to finish a half smoked joint, have a shower, and then straighten my place up a bit.
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I have had these notions before. I generally never get passed the "mmm, that was some good herb. Now, to clean. Well, maybe some foods first. Dont want to eat in silence, wonder whats on tv???......"
~3 hours later:
I am passed out on the couch with a bag of chips and a spilled can of soda.

:\ what ya gonna do :shrug:

Well, may end this binge of being up since thursday evening and only getting ~4 hours sleep and plunder my am2233, ambien, diaz, and gabapentin and watch netflix til I wake up tomorrow. Will see how well it works :)

Be safe BDD! Do everything I wouldn't do.
Im conservative.

conservative=pussy in some circles
;)
 
^Damn man,

And it really depends on the strain of weed. Sometimes weed gives me motivation to clean, etc...other times I just wanna sit on the couch all day.
 
I was standing in the glass window pane w/ my cat earlier to warm up... ughhhh. 1500watt delonghi heater cranked up and I'm still shivering. wtfmate.

Also - got home from partying last night around 0330-0400. Couldn't get to sleep for ~2 hours, and even then it was only because I took some kpin that I had wanted to save instead. Everyone says not to re-dose MDMA, but I've always had the best luck doing it like this. Thumb-dipping is my ROA of choice for MDMA. I ate my .3 over maybe 2 hours last night, before 0100 it was gone. 7 hours later I was tossing and turning in my bed wishing for sleep.

Oh, and my ex wants to resume dating. Argh.
 
^ Wise advice. Hope you are okay PJ..

How's it going NT? I've had a slightly ridiculous day of MXE and mushrooms, following an accidental stim sesh, kinda back to baseline now.. ish hehe. Time for sofa, blanket, TV and diazepam. Got loads I need to do tomorrow, but not going to think about all that right now...
 
I took .25mg this am after waking up. I'm down to 1.25 now until the 20th, so unless I find others to tide me over until my refill, I need to ration it out. Eating the rest of them sounds amazing right now. I bet I wouldn't even care about these cold sweats.. :p

...put it this way - I gotta go to the garage to blaze. Have a bowl packed and ready to go closer to my hands than the keyboard I'm typing on, and I'm still too farking cold to go smoke a bit. I KNOW it's gonna help too... blah. (That's my personality in a nutshell - do nothing unless immediately pertinent).
 
^ Hah. I know exactly what you mean. Put on an extra jumper and do it though, you'll feel better for it :)

Currently rocking a slanket (fuckyeah, forgot I had one of these) and feeling a tad fragile, but had a good few days and overall I think I am okay :) Just trying not to think about all the stuff I have to deal with tomorrow.. bleugh. Tomorrow is a little way away though, and I know I'll feel better once I have done everything I need to do.
 
Got some pseudoephedrine tabs and double dosed, lets hops that gets my chest feeling better, gonna have to order some Diaz tomorrow this rubbish I've got from PK is going to be no good to end a taper on. Its going to be touch and go that I don't end up getting the good stuff and working my way back up but if I manage not to I'll know I have them beat.

If I don't well I'll just have to start again, the whole shall I order some or not thing is just getting to be a problem in itself, its been doing my head in all day, so I'm just going to do it and see what the fek happens.

@Effie I have this faux fur kinda bear skin rug thing its so warm great for in from of the TV the whole family can get under it, talking of such things we just ordered a leather corner sofa, twas the deal, I could have my 42" TV if Mrs atm (all things patched up now) could have a redecorated front room and a corner sofa. So it will be p[ring time luxury in the atm house hold:D

At long last I can see a little bit of light not much, but a bit and I'm running towards it with everything I've got, its a long way away but I haven't seen it for so long I'm not taking my eye off it now. Meeting with a Tai Chi teacher next week as well and intend to start classes ASAP. CBT has really helped but there's no doubt you have to put in the work yourself or it worthless.

Best wishes to all especially Effie, time and all that<3
 
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^ Whatever happens, atm, things will be okay in the end. You're a tough cookie! Hope your cold/chest infection leaves you alone soon, and you are looking after yourself <3
 
I got some ephedrine/gauf tablets...

I just dosed with some buprenorphine for pain relief and some minimal cough suppression. I wish codeine still worked, I have a huge bottle of Robitussin AC here :(
 
Awww. At least you have a little bupe.. I hope you feel better soon! <3

Everyone's sick at the moment, is someone spreading germs around BDD??
 
Unfortunately I think you are right. I'm expecting to get sick any day now....

Bleugh. Definitely time to pretend real life doesn't exist and lose myself in benzos and TV... had a lovely few days though, it's been worth it :)
 
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