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FUCKING ROPEABLE beach mission was a complete meltdown once again ive managed to upset those around me, my kid has the most fucked up attutude towards my gf just like all the others, She wants to push my butons then well shes gonnna have a fucking few boreing days of no tv no DS no beach and no pool, im fucking sick of being walked over by a 12 yo. and im fucking sick and tired of her playing a magour part in destroying my relationships:X :!
 
Don't beat yourself up

S.M.F.G said:
FUCKING ROPEABLE beach mission was a complete meltdown once again ive managed to upset those around me, my kid has the most fucked up attutude towards my gf just like all the others, She wants to push my butons then well shes gonnna have a fucking few boreing days of no tv no DS no beach and no pool, im fucking sick of being walked over by a 12 yo. and im fucking sick and tired of her playing a magour part in destroying my relationships:X :!
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Calm, deep breathing Hun. It is hard on everyone.

She is that age, hormones etc.

My son can be the spawn of the devil but he is so loving and it breaks my heart to see the pain in my families eyes, my mum has aged more in the last week than she has in the last 30 years, she looks like an old woman.


So I am in excruciating mental and physical pain and feel like I've gone a full 25 minutes with broke lesner!!!!


Healing thoughts to you, it's going to be fine. Did I recommend some books to you or not?

<3
 
^ cant recall about the books, some good reading would be appreicated.... Shit runs deep in the family we are quite broken atm im doing all i possibly can to make things happy but with what im dealing with aside from that its so fucking hard, Most of the time im just lookin 4 escapeisim usualy thru substances (perscribed of course) and the drink is back on the table. Shits just fucked im getting the impending sence of doom like "ur gonna loose everything u eva worked for and loved" makes me want to fucking die. thanks 4 the kind words D2p. will just have to ride the rest of the day out, busted and got pot, busted and got alchohol, busted on meds, not a good time for me (sorry this is probably an inappropriate thread to post this in) i just had to let it out...
 
Hey it's ok, I nearly destroyed my relationship with my mental health and pain, accusations, paranoia, insecurity, delusions, psychosis etc but it's looking like things are getting back on track. We were technically living together as very argumentative friends from April to November, him downstairs, me catatonic in my room.

You need proper support and counselling I'd say, the books I will recommend are workbooks and brilliant for depression and anxiety, also got one for PTSD but that one was expensive, but if your moods are as erratic as mine, I'd definitely check it out, got one wrote by a survivor of 9/11 who is a psychiatrist or dr of some sort, really, really informative. Also if you look in the posts I wrote to schizophonik about RLS syndrome and medication I gave a very detailed technique for meditation it it. I'd write it all again but I am hurting pretty bad so just reading and posting keeps me relatively distracted til a cramp grips me and kicks off the whole shitty thing again lol.


Anyway enough of my ramble, I will get some links together now. If you dload kindle for tour pc/crap top/tablet you can buybthe books and dload them straight to your device :)

Love and healing thoughts coming your way <3
 
all of a sudden i want to kill everything and don't want anyone to hear anybody's actual voice. my teeth hurt and i don't remember how to sleep and its finals week and i don't know how I'm going to sleep at tonight
 
<3 thanks D2p
am sorry to hear ur still in pain and run down... if i could even take half ur pain away (But have ur meds of course)
I would... IMO physical pain doesent hurt nearly as bad as emotional pain, I really think it has a corrolation and or distinction between physical pain and emotional pain that causes people to self harm to ease the emotional pain but im no expert:\ Although ive been thru it.
 
Now a little concerned. My girlfriend's daughter has just gone back into hospital for the second time in about a week for her overactive thyroid. My girlfriend is upset :( but I told her even though it's horrible being in a hospital, to remember it is the safest place!
 
Hating the choice to quit cocktailing for a little. Don't feel any less shitty, just so much more aware of it, and unable to turn off the nagging depressing dark thoughts.
 
fivelinefury said:
Now a little concerned. My girlfriend's daughter has just gone back into hospital for the second time in about a week for her overactive thyroid. My girlfriend is upset :( but I told her even though it's horrible being in a hospital, to remember it is the safest place!
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That is so true man, sending lots of good vibes to your gf's little girl <3


KiwiQflyer said:
Hating the choice to quit cocktailing for a little. Don't feel any less shitty, just so much more aware of it, and unable to turn off the nagging depressing dark thoughts.
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Yeah I know what you mean man. Hey, please feel free to PM me if you wanna chat okay? Maybe it might help to get those dark thoughts out "on to paper" so to speak, rather than trying to turn them off or squash/numb/run away from them. Know what I mean? Take care, and keep up the sobriety <3


For the last week or so my moods have been really up and down, and all over the place. But today I am mainly feeling melancholy and uncertain about the future..... I don't like this feeling :|
 
n3ophy7e said:
For the last week or so my moods have been really up and down, and all over the place. But today I am mainly feeling melancholy and uncertain about the future..... I don't like this feeling :|
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Sorry to hear that n3o :( . Ive been like that lately too despite trying to do everything to cheer myself up. It fucking sucks.

Feel better soon <3
 
S.M.F.G said:
Hurt Im all upside down again, how can one trust another when they lie to your face only to get caught out? Sad times:|
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Sorry your feeling this way. <3

Your pm box is full.


Hope that little girl will be okay FLF...and you too and your gf, of course.:)
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hope you're ok FLF only just seen these posts

SMFG look for a book called the mood gym on amazon, it is pretty cheap to buy and has some awesome techniques in it, I cannot access my other books yet, I disabled my ipad by accident, was shaking too badly and entered the passcode wrong too manytimes like a tool lol

love to you both<3

I am feeling rather *overwhelmed* today
 
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