Ashley you mean so much to me I can never repay what you done for me.Thats why I said anything you need you just have to ask.I find it hard to express love to friends but you the reason im still clean.During my recovery I even planned to end marriage and just keep using your words kept me on path.Hve you heard from rio fantastic he had relapsed then stopped but heard no more hope he good.
Thanks ash I'll be ok during these fucking vows.The hardworking is down to my old man and the Punjabi thinking of a man no matter what has to get up on the morning and work for his family.In my culture a man is a man only if he does his duty for his family.I could have lived comfortably on the money that comes in from my business with cousin.The only reason I got a outside job was to provide the funds for My drugs.I to hope Rio is ok I am worries about him
Thanks mate it is just something else how someone I have never met could drag me out of the hell I was in.How are you hope you are doing well thanks for the kind words.
He did have some good qualities he clothed us fed us taught us all a great work ethic.If only he could have not given us the mental abuse and beatings which were bad talking broken bones and said he loved us to any of us boys it would have been a perfect dad.Saying that he gave up drinking so I would get better that showed me he loves us was a massive weight of my shoulders.
How you doing Rio so good to hear from you I was worried.Fuck me bruv how lucky are you let it be a wake up call mate.Im so glad I never shot up felt like it for the last few years but kept promise to wife.Keep strong mate for your own sake you could have been dead and your mum be going to look at you at the hospital cold as ice.Any time you need anything mate send me a message I'll give you my number and help in any way I can you helped me massively I would do it for you
How you doing mate hoping your having good days.Im doing good got a itching to go see my mate the dealer but I just talk on phone.I miss my mates the coke heads and the skagheads but I'm weak never say no to a line or brown so it is what it is.My wife is busy shipping this and that to states inbetween discussions with her sister about fucking wedding vows.My wife has picked the one thing that I would hate doing the most don't know why she wants to renew our vows she kept to her vows I'm the knob that broke all mine.But she the love of my life so sometimes it's best to smoke a joint stick earplugs in ear and listen to rock while her and her sister natter on the phone.Took me days to log on here kept asking for password and saying forbidden
How you doing bruv how you feeling.I been sober for a few months now all of October and maybe all September it's all a muddle I relapsed loads but this my longest with no gear.Not going to lie I'll still have moments of thinking maybe I could use once a week but that's what fucked me up last time.My most vulnerable time is when I go a long stretch without it I think I could give it ago.I am confident that I can stay the course.I can't talk about my feelings to people face to face so smart recovery proberly not for me.This is the place I go to get things of my chest.Keep strong mate don't go back to it you was so close to being dead last time for what a drug that takes up most our thoughts time money and it is just a fake life it's only a temporary relief mate.You have mentioned your mum before imagine her pain if something happened to you.As a father of three I can't imagine the pain of losing a child.