Regrets9995
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Feb 27, 2017
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- 57
From my experience, recovery has only come about from hard work and committing myself to change. In many ways my life is so much better now than before the drug use. I am more true to myself, kinder to others and more appreciative of life but you have to work to get there. I spent about 6 months replaying the events that I believed caused this, I also referred to that event as that 'fateful weekend' but as time goes on I realised I was looking at my past self with rose tinted glasses and believed I was so happy and full of life when to be honest something must have been wrong for me to be choosing to take drugs and get pissed every weekend. For ages it felt like a grenade had gone off in my head and the world around me felt like a picture that I could interact with but it has passed in time. Just got to do things for yourself that you did not before. I highly recommend therapy to help you through this and to gain new techniques which will improve mental health and also the correct application of medication if it is deemed necessary and you are wrestling with thoughts of suicide. I never thought I would write a stupid comment like this saying it can get better and I used to hate reading comments from people who had got better because it pissed me off that I was destroyed and had thrown everything away but it will get better. Believing that you have brain damage is a very common conclusion drawn by people who are experiencing DP and DR and it really is terrifying but you can get through it. I could go on about this subject for so long but I feel I am waffling so hang in there, get into a routine and focus on the basics. Don't blame yourself or beat yourself up because who really ever sees a mental breakdown coming? This shit creeps up on you and can be triggered by so much but you will get better and be stronger for it because once you have experienced this, smaller life struggles are nothing in comparison.