It really is worth it if you do everything right you guys. But remember I only had 2 shots of invega the 2 loading shots). But the bottom line is in my experience, towards the end, you have to really work hard for it. Killing yourself with exercise and maxxing out on sunlight and sweat is the key. I didn't fast while i did all this, I ate a ton because I live at my grandparents... If you diet or fast too in the sun, then you're golden/ Don't do drugs. For now just save all your money for the day you recover.. Make long term plans to to stay realistically motivated. Right now you're in the worlds greatest underground Olympic waiting game.. But that day will come so just know that the trophy is there waiting for you, with your name on it.. Because looking back I think it was not that long a wait, but just not knowing for sure,, that I think is what really makes it feel like forever... So I'm here to let you know 18 months is the finish line. The last 6 months of which are much easier in themselves, but those months you actually are making into your hardest months as you see more and more subtle rewards from exercise in terms of working to break through. A girlfriend was my motivation 100%, but I think you can do it without one. (((Just pay a sexy asian masseuse for happy ending! To also help your brain cuz I think sex will be very helpful too for the brain.)))
Looking back now I think it was worth it, to actually be happy and myself again. But even with my happiness and my playful dreams, I find I am much more cynical about it of coarse but, I can sense a power this time neurotically that is here to stay.. So listen. Once you reach 14 months I would say theres no excuse to not exercise,, hard. Every day. I hiked 35 miles in that first week, 5 miles a day because I got a very sexy girls number (who didn't know anything about my chain smoking and drinking suical habits in my fast food trashed car... LOL.) So that was my first time and after a year of all that vegetating, it was like ok,, Die? Orrrrr Atleast TRY HARD AS I CAN NOT TO, and then I still can die if I wan't! Thats fair enough right??.....That helped me begin the real exercise process.... But no, It was NOT easy.
Now at 18 months, I felt like pretty much better, but I took 6 Kratom pills from my friend and I was Euphoric for like 4 days, way too happy...And now Im myself again and that was over a week ago. Dreams and desires all back. I'm even looking at my book shelf again with the desire to read. So please just do these steps, wait for 18 months and you did all that before you try the Kratom, PLEASE, Do not rush.@ 18 months, the Invega is guaranteed to be out of your system and its just your brain recovering now. Only then is when you go get yourself some Kratom. And i guarantee if you follow these steps in order, the Kratom is gunna rewire your brain In one clean swoop. But be patient and do all the exercise before that, until you feel like you almost recovered 100%.Then you do the Kratom.
That all being said. Don't feel guilty for killing yourself. That still make's you an Invega survivor.