Hmm might not be what this thread was looking for but i wanna share it anyway.
Once tried to commit suicide (dumbest fucking idea) found out an OD on IBpurofen (Panadol , Nurofen etc) can shut your liver down and cause your organs to cease function , Went to the supermarket
picked up like 4-5 packets , went home tipping them all out on my bed , took a look at the pile , thought about it and then started to eat them like they were lollies , about 30mins later i felt a MAJOR
BURN on the inside of me going from my upper stomach all the way up through my chest and throat , was rushed to the emergency ward , i remember parts of the ambulence ride and waking up in a hospital
outside of my town , as soon as i awoke the nurse told me i chose 1 of the most painful way's of suicide and that she had someone for me to talk to , bang therapist walks in , just told him what he wanted to hear
was along the lines of.
"did you do this to make someone feel bad?"
My Response = No (real answer was yes)
"do you intend to attempt this again"
My Response = No (Real answer at the time was yes)
"do you feel like doing this resolved the problem?"
My Response = No , im well aware of how stupid it was and i will never do this again
ëtc etc etc , you all get the idea.
i didin't tell anyone i was attempting like alot of fake's do , this was the real deal i didin't want anyone to know / stop me , didn't even leave a note or anything , at the time i was VERY depressed
and death litrally did seem like and wouldve been better than the life i was living , the thing that pulled me out of the depression was quite litrally amphets with my friends and HEAP of good times
I now no longer take amphets , barley smoke weed and am happier than ever and am off to uni next year , so dont assume im some weirdo lol.... but yeah i plan on jumping deeper into the psychedelic's
as im loving the whole self exploration through psychedelic's and im happy to this day to tell people that drugs saved my life.
Amphets made me quite litrally feel "alive" and to top it off i had all my best friends doing it with me and going out on weekend's meeting heaps of chick's
and getting laid almost every weekend , i was a popular kid through highschool aswell so my peer's got quite the shock when they found out what id done ,
alot of the people who i never talked to in highschool that were picked on alot even turned to me to try and help which really helped open my eyes
and help me loose the fucking ego i had.