My first strng tab experience went pretty dark - was at this NYE rave in London, which was amazing, til halfway through my peak, something just went really wrong, and I remember sitting on a sofa possibly touching myself a bit, then asked some really fucked girl if I could kiss her coz we were having a random conversation - I wasn't even attracted to her(!), was talking to this german girl about VERY strange stuff, and she was on MDMA gurning her face off so this unattractive face grinding away sent me off on a weird wander - where I came across strange gangster types with their (appearances...not sure a bout this one) transsexual prostitutes on their arms - then blurs and confusion, coming down to sit on a sofa again seeing black spiderwebs over everyone's faces, and over my hands...I got to sleep for a few hours, before having to guide my friend who had just taken 3 or 4 tabs (unnaturally high tolerance to stuff it would seem she has) before we wer about to leave- so on a major comedown I had to guide her through London on a bus then we got a tube, and then a train home...
Either that time or this other time when I did 2 drops of acid, one autumn evening, 2 years after my last dose of LSD - my friend accidentally forgot he'd given me a drop already as he dosed a few of us up, so gave me another...
That night was amazing, starting at 5 in the afternoon...
It gets dark in autumn early so by the time I hit peak I was SO taken over by visuals that I couldn't see through the mist and had to be walked like an old person around very slowly...I ran off from my friends, after cartoon vision hit me, and I saw my brother and his friends, and an old friend who saw me really fucked and a bit creeped out and saw his face of disgust, as he excused himself and walked away...I couldn't holda conversation - kept starting off on a tangent, short attention span in a huuuuge way...then I got lost in some bakc streets of my old village, and everything seemed to be covered in ice, with dripping ice off plants and stuff.
I was a bit scared, and it made me think about my life and how I needed to sort it out.
I then went home, and couldn't get to sleep but just laid there trying & thoughtlooping to myself...fuck that was not good - I lost my phone, threw away a bag of mushrooms I'd picked, and destroyed my ego...
Worst but also one of my best...I haven't trully ever had a REALLY bad experience that I felt I was in forever, or saw really evil stuff....
My friend said considering the dose - the way I fought it was pretty graceful, he said he's babysat people on the same dose, who have got violent coz they're so confused and scared...I was just a big baby who was a bit dumb lol.
The one time I had a bit of a more difficult time, I was at this rave my friends hosted, I took 60 shrooms, and a half gram of MDMA, and smoked a fat blunt, and everything was all good, bit dark as there were some not very nice people there, (setting oh no
), but I was OK as long as I was with one of my friends who was also tripping.
SO anyways, I was toking on this blung, passed it to a bunch of friends - this weed was just seriously potent, nice pure sativa - mindblowing stuff...anyways about an hour later, my friend comes up to me and says"what was in that blunt?! whbat was in that?!? My gf's wigging out blah blah blah blah"... So I was like "nothing, just highgrade", and went and saw her and she was looking into the distance, really distressed look on her face, crying and struggling against people who were trying to comfort her, just saying over and over "don't let them get me, I'm lost, Matt come find me!" - this put me on a MASSIVE bad trip, thinking that EVERYONE at the party was blaming me for this, so I left, and when I got home with my ladyfriend (who passed out on my bed) I was left with images of people at the party - their faces all scowling and saying "it was him" and stuff like that... went to sleep tripping and moaning like a scared lil bitch.
These all taught me about set & setting...