I'm withdrawing from 2 to 4 mg suboxone a day, made it to day 4 or 5 and ended up in the hospital for fluids... next day or day after I couldn't take the lead suit anymore so I shot a bit of cotton that was still a bit orange. Maybe 3rd shot or so. Most of the withdrawal symptoms passed. Skipped yesterday, feeling down and weak but ok, I felt the lead suit returning today and took another shot from a used cotton. I have to beat this stuff and tapering is not an option. My husband never knew till a week or so ago, and he's being so loving and supportive, I feel like this has brought us closer somehow. HOWEVER I can't get back on and taper, one bc we can't afford it with me taking a few days off work to deal with this, two, I don't want to bc I'm so ANGRY at what this stuff has done to me! Lastly, my husband is a police officer and he has stuck by me, but if I don't do whatever it takes to beat this, he will take our daughter from me, and my 3 older kids would be with their dad I guess, and he'd have me arrested for buying and selling a scheduled substance. And he has all the proof he'd need. I don't blame him. Honestly I didn't think he would give me a chance if he knew. I tried tapering but failed with no help, bc I had to hide it from him and keep working. So I have this plan. Calm support,twice a day, 2000 mg of DLPA, 3 times a day, 2000 mg of american ginseng twice a day, and now foods sleep veg 2 at bed time. I also have diphenhydramine as well. Tried smoking weed but it made things worse, I never have been a big smoker bc of my anxiety. Taking a multivitamin and b-12 to help with energy, and caffeine supplements. I need to return to work soon and care for my children. Was wondering if phentermine (sp?) 1/2 of a 37.5 mg pill before work and again at lunch if I need it might help? I don't take them regularly and havent had one in many months. Regularly it doesn't affect my sleep if I don't take it in the 6 hr before bed. Melatonin is out bc I work 12 hr nights in a factory and sleep in the day time.
Here's my drug history. Tweaked on meth for a month or two back in 2010, hated coming down bc I wanted to die so I slept for days and kicked that out. Spent 2009 to 2012 on a roxy habit, banging up to 10 30 mg pills a day, went to jail some and the last time dcs drug tested me and I was freaked. Only failed for thc since I'd been in for 8 days but it woke me up... spent the next 2 years clean. Had 2 more babies that I love to the moon and back. Divorced and remarried as well. Earlier this year I began using sub recreationally a tiny crumb here and there for a boost of energy. Next thing I know I'm doing 2 to 4 mg a day for months. Prob 4 months. So here I am. Please help! I take effexor xr for depression, and I have meds from the hospital for stomach pain/spasms, muscle pain, and nausea. I have access to potassium pills and a magnesium based bio cleanse by plexus. And a good probiotic. Would the phentermine work to get me through work without the lead suit? That's the one symptom I can't seem to deal with! I only work mon tues and wed nights. So wouldn't have to take it all week. Will it help that symptom without prolonging the sub leaving my system?