I never did anyone physical harm or something...but the worst thing for getting drug money..??? Well, I wasnt that addicted, that I had to steal money. Except for my insanely crazy 13-17 chronic daily cannabis addicition...Yeah, and I regret it everytime I think of, because not that I stole their money only, because I really damaged myself with marijauana. No drug in I ever took an that must haven been 30 at least (RCs included) had such an negative effect on me personally...Otherwise, while I was on a 1 year phenazepam binge with selling dope, making big money and snorting..yeah coke would rhyme better with it, but speed...well, speed, phenazepam, you dont even realize you took something, you just feel normal, I acted normally too...I didnt fell through the house, streets or whatever, but I felt invincible, shame (which was a big thing I had, like shame to blame in front of class, etc. , such things or girls) Yeah, shame was non existant, I said what I head in my mind without any regret. I was 22 at the time, employed, but making well lets say...I I made a "few bucks" from selling pot to my aunts and uncles, lol. No, I literally felt like Tony Montana, wearing leather jackets, silver necklaces, spending money like its just paper (it really is..., but I couldve done better things with it) and yeah. At the third time I harvested I went with two I dont know the exact word...transparent big plastic packs through my town, like it was nothing (dont know how much it was dried, but I guess 1 Kilo, and 1 Kg not manicured buds , looks pretty much with all the rest of the plant in the plastic packs..
To get money, I really didnt do anything extreme. I was more the type to get money from others to get more money, you know? So I made a few cyber things, and yeah.....felt rich and fame with 22. Feel like shit with 25, living at home with no job and no girlfriend.
But yeah phenazepam is still my favourite benzodiazepine, the ego boost or better give a shit about anything is better than every coke or whatever drug on earth.And of course, the crash came, after I realized I am addicted to this stuff...I dont even took that much or daily. Had about 2g and took 1-2mg and once in a while 5-10 I guess. But because of the long half time....yeah..it had it consequences, withdrawal wasnt nice, but 2 weeks chronic gbl consume I believe fucked my brain literally...I dont read much negative about it, but the GABA-B recepter seems to be permanently damaged due to chronic consume and daily abrupt. If I take Phenibut 3 days in a row I am in withdrawal, serious. But I went off topic....mdpv is the cause of that,lol.
Like I said, stole money from parents or stold their gold,silver jewelery and sold it, because I never had money, because I went to school till 20 dropped out and have serious mental problems, nothing psychotic, but in a way that I wasnt able to do anything from 19-20 when I dropped till now ...Still...But its time to get my ass up now, life is fucked anyway, I have nothing to lose, I can only win.