Sorry in advance, as this is going to be a long post, but I'm new both to Bluelight and PST and would like some input on my situation.
Holy moley. I was an opiate user for many years, on and off. I quit opiates for about two years recently, and then read a bit about Kratom. I thought it would be a great way to dabble with my love without getting in too deep like back in the day, and I had no tolerance anymore. I tried a few vendors and settled on one, my all time favorite. I liked it, and was pleasantly surprised. I soon began using plain Bali every day, just a few grams, and then, it turned into 3-6 grams of UEI, 16+ grams of Bali, (and ~20 grams of Kava with a few tagamets for potentiation) each day, altogether in a mixture. All opiate users understand how quick a spiral like that can happen.
Long story short, I quit cold turkey and, surprisingly, beyond feeling utterly bored out of my mind no matter what I was doing and maybe a bit tired, had no other wd's. Now, from a good vendor UEI is strong stuff. And I was convinced I had the best, until it became a complete wasteland never stocked, and they cutoff sending free samples (a nice treat they always did) and adding extra weight to orders (a staple, which seemed to be reflected in the pricing). I didn't want to find a new vendor as good so I just quit again. I'm not sure it's acceptable to post vendors on here but I'm going to cipher the name by using a synonym for each word in it, and whoever is familiar with it should know. How does "Foggy Hill Organics" sound?
Cutting to the chase. Just wondering if anyone else has had a similar experience to mine. Because after two weeks of not enjoying anything anymore; music was boring, video games were boring, sex was boring, work was intolerable, and all I wanted to do was sleep because the world had lost its luster. So I opted for what I thought was the absolute least negatively affecting opiate. Something that would be cheaper, easier, and even much much weaker than anything else. Boy oh boy was I wrong. Dead wrong. That switch was to poppy seed tea.
Only bob's off Amazon at first, it fluctuates in price but was very cheap on the day I had this idea and as I'd read about it a few places and have Amazon Prime I figured I'd give it a quick little try with low, albeit not absent, exoectations. Did one pound day one following the basic 2 liter bottle cwe method posted everywhere. Making it was at first a mess and took forever, and after 20 minutes of nothing whatsoever kicking in I was pissed, but figured how could something off Amazon do anything even mildly euphoric anyway? Oh well. I knew that'd be too good to be true. Well, flash forward another twenty minutes and the world unfurled in front of me. I felt just.... BLISS
this was SO much better than Kratom. I hadn't felt this in YEARS. Near on a decade. My entire body was loose, my mind was clear, and everything I enjoyed immediately became enjoyable again. So what did I do?
Flash forward two weeks. Every day on bob's, using 1.5 lbs and a second wash later in the evening to keep in prolonged. So many orders, andtthe potency has been EXACTLY the same (anectdotally) every single time.
Now I've found out about some other, much better looking places, and will probably pop an order from somewhere today. 'Toms' or 'Turtle' seem best? Any input here? I'm not sure it's wise but, I cannot go back to Kratom now and honestly, I just like life a hell of a lot better with opiates and do not want ANY more risky trips to the ghetto to get them. The funny thing is my family pegs me as being on drugs when I'm NOT on them, and as soon as I restock or find something I like they say "wow, the real you is back. Glad you're out of that daze because we were getting really concerned about you and if we should intervene. What made you finally get clean? Are you going to meetings now? I know you couldn't have sounded this clear headed if you were still using, etc. ".......... Lol. Why do average people assume all drugs make everyone a lazy zombie? Because it's always been the reverse for me.
Anyway, over the years I went from legal, endless percocet due to a bone condition, to getting surgery for said condition and being weaned off and clean for many many years (without EVER forgetting) , to relapsing heavy with roxies to, eventually the final solution of dope, to cold turkey for many years again (whilst deleting all contacts who could locate said things and breaking my phone), then to Kratom, and finally PST..... and I'm the happiest I've ever been on PST. it just..... WORKS. Unbelievable how I always scoffed at the idea, never even acknowledging it as a real narcotic. Sure enough, from the very first glass to the hundredth every single one has felt like pure heaven.