Hey Guys,
I am/was experiencing the same as you all. Eventhough i am at the very end of my journey, i wanted to tell you my experience so you or other people in the future can get something positive out of it and will be reminded that you will recover from this.
So, here goes..
Six weeks ago I took a half a pill of xtc along with a whole lot of beer. It was my first time and on the night itself everything was cool..no problems. The next morning i woke up with a little hangover, but other than that i was fine. The weather was good so i went barbequeing(?lol) with friends and also had alot of beer. Great day, no problems. Then the nightmare began.
Woke up totally messed up. My symptoms:
*massive headache
*extreme tingling sensations throughout my head
*short term memory destroyed. completely gone
*felt like my iq was cut in half
*still felt extremely high, like a bodily high, but a bad one
*lights way to intense(couldnt watch tv for 2 weeks)
*no emotions(other than sheer panic ofcourse)
*And the worst of them all..depersonalisation. (felt like i was not living in the here and now, but lagging a second behind..like being a spectactor of yourself...very nasty
To make a very long story very short:
Its been six weeks and i'm 99% there. Emotionally and mentally i have been 100% recovered for at least two weeks. After the depersonalization went, the derealization came. Also nasty. It felt like normal was not quite normal. Like the spark that made reality real was missing. Luckily since about a week that has also gone. Right now the only complaints im having is very slight vision problems along with a very slight headache altough since the last like 3 days they both have cleared up immensly and right now i dont feel any of them.
One last thing. Today i had a free consult by phone with a docter who specialises in people who are having longterm medical problems after druguse(specifically xtc). We have those here in The Netherlands. Had a good conversation with him and he told me some interesting stuff. Like:
i am lucky to have already reccovered so fast in six weeks. Most of the time it takes months.
He worked as a specialist with drugrelated medical issues with people for a couple years and said he talked to/treated about 150 people who had the same experience as me. (The Netherlands has 17000000 people so its a rare thing to happen but you're not the only one)
I should realy be very careful/dont use any kind of harddrug again, cause somehow my brain is very sensitive to the stuff)
I will be fine in a matter of weeks. He said i shouldnt be surprised if it would still take like a month or even two to completely get rid of my last symptoms. It is hard to tell, but it will go away.
O yeah, he asked me what i did, cause he was like.. 'you are recovering faster than most people'. I said the only thing that made me feel better from day one was excercise. I was/still am running at least 6 kilometers a day. Get a good sweat out. Also once i got all my emotions back, I noticed listening to music helps alot too. Music is food for the soul indeed. Just wanted to share my story. I am positive you will all recover from this. Hang in there and take care..\
Peace
H ey Guys,
I am/was experiencing the same as you all. Eventhough i am at the very end of my journey, i wanted to tell you my experience so you or other people in the future can get something positive out of it and will be reminded that you will recover from this.
So, here goes..
Six weeks ago I took a half a pill of xtc along with a whole lot of beer. It was my first time and on the night itself everything was cool..no problems. The next morning i woke up with a little hangover, but other than that i was fine. The weather was good so i went barbequeing(?lol) with friends and also had alot of beer. Great day, no problems. Then the nightmare began.
Woke up totally messed up. My symptoms:
*massive headache
*extreme tingling sensations throughout my head
*short term memory destroyed. completely gone
*felt like my iq was cut in half
*still felt extremely high, like a bodily high, but a bad one
*lights way to intense(couldnt watch tv for 2 weeks)
*no emotions(other than sheer panic ofcourse)
*And the worst of them all..depersonalisation. (felt like i was not living in the here and now, but lagging a second behind..like being a spectactor of yourself...very nasty
To make a very long story very short:
Its been six weeks and i'm 99% there. Emotionally and mentally i have been 100% recovered for at least two weeks. After the depersonalization went, the derealization came. Also nasty. It felt like normal was not quite normal. Like the spark that made reality real was missing. Luckily since about a week that has also gone. Right now the only complaints im having is very slight vision problems along with a very slight headache altough since the last like 3 days they both have cleared up immensly and right now i dont feel any of them.
One last thing. Today i had a free consult by phone with a docter who specialises in people who are having longterm medical problems after druguse(specifically xtc). We have those here in The Netherlands. Had a good conversation with him and he told me some interesting stuff. Like:
i am lucky to have already reccovered so fast in six weeks. Most of the time it takes months.
He worked as a specialist with drugrelated medical issues with people for a couple years and said he talked to/treated about 150 people who had the same experience as me. (The Netherlands has 17000000 people so its a rare thing to happen but you're not the only one)
I should realy be very careful/dont use any kind of harddrug again, cause somehow my brain is very sensitive to the stuff)
I will be fine in a matter of weeks. He said i shouldnt be surprised if it would still take like a month or even two to completely get rid of my last symptoms. It is hard to tell, but it will go away.
O yeah, he asked me what i did, cause he was like.. 'you are recovering faster than most people'. I said the only thing that made me feel better from day one was excercise. I was/still am running at least 6 kilometers a day. Get a good sweat out. Also once i got all my emotions back, I noticed listening to music helps alot too. Music is food for the soul indeed. Just wanted to share my story. I am positive you will all recover from this. Hang in there and take care..\
Peace
Update:
He guys. Its been almost 4 months now since taking that pill so let me give you a quick update about my recovery:
Basicly i am fine. The visual distortions (light sensitivity/ focussing problems) have really improved. Most of the time the light sensitivity is gone. The focussing thing (hard to explain..almost like trouble seeing in 3D) is getting less and less noticeable each week. (wouldnt say day, because a day is nothing when you are recovering from shit like this..you all probably know.)
Mentally and emotionally i am 100% recovered and have been for quite some time now. Had some trouble with speaking for a while(like searching longer for words, trouble forming complex sentences, thinking about how you are going to say what you want to say) but that is as good as gone as well. Right now, the only thing that is still reminding me sometimes about the whole ordeal is the visual distortion thing and still some small tingling sensations around my head/headaches, but to be honest the headaches don't really bother me as much and are very slight. My vision is fine most of the day. When i am at work or at home it is completely normal. But when i go to a supermarket with all those products with all those colours or when i am at crowded places my vision still gets a bit weird.
But like i said, it has been far worse, so im confident that it will eventually go away completely. Right now, i'm just waiting voor those last symptoms to fade out. The first 5 weeks of this experience were the most terrifying. Right now its just a small annoyance. I can go on with my life again and have been doing so since my first post about this 'situation'. Ill post here one more time when all my symptoms have gone and i can report a 100% recovery. I hope and expect to be able to do so within six months. Ofcourse it is hard to guess because like i said this shit takes so long, lord knows how long its gonna take. (Man, i thought i was almost there when i wrote my first post) But at least when i say within six months it means that i feel like im very close to full recovery and expect it to fade out not long from now.
To everybody who is having these symptoms.. Don't worry. Everything is gonna be allright.
Ciao
I already posted this somewhere else.... but
Ive been feeling amazing lately. No anxiety, head is soooo much clearer. Mood is great. Even music is starting to sound good again.
Dude, I know you've been in this sh it for quite a while. Are you willing to take that fucking chance? The fact that you're feeling better is awesome, have some beers or something, but don't risk FUCKING IT ALL UP.
I have no idea what a hit of acid would do to you, but I'm pretty sure that it could fuck you up potentially (considering you're on a comedown still). Some dude on here shroomed while on a comedown and it didn't sound pleasant..
Hey everyone,
This is my first time blogging and I have a question.
I took some really good M (one hit) on NYE...it wasnt much but I am still feeling the effects. I have no appetite, crazy anxiety, low sexual drive, and just dont feel like myself. Any ideas?
I already posted this somewhere else.... but
Like Ive really been thinking about taking acid lately. Like a half dose to see what happens. I wanna know how I will respond.
Ive been feeling amazing lately. No anxiety, head is soooo much clearer. Mood is great. Even music is starting to sound good again.
In going to a show (adventure club) this weekend and really wanna take a dose. I wouldnt smoke, I just wanna try to take a very small dose. Im so curious. Would this be a really bad idea?
You keep asking us man... we can't tell you the right answer. You need to access yourself personally and see if you are ready for that kind of experience. If you feel fine, I'm sure you'd have an amazing time... although do NOT take it at a club. Even experienced acid heads can get overwhelmed in that kind of setting.
Take it at home if you do, think about what that "comedown" really did you to mentally. Hopefully you'd be able to work out some of the barriers that we all put up in defense of such drastic changes.
I see little reason LSD would "set you back". It does not effect serotonin in the same way, so there is little to no chance of all the damage "coming back". At worst you could get into a bad mindset which may set you back MENTALLY, but you seem to be in a very stable state of mind at the moment. I would say there is little more risk for you than anyone else taking LSD for the first time. Just listen to your body and be smart about things; I'm sure you know what is best for yourself, deep down.
Hey everyone,
This is my first time blogging and I have a question.
I took some really good M (one hit) on NYE...it wasnt much but I am still feeling the effects. I have no appetite, crazy anxiety, low sexual drive, and just dont feel like myself. Any ideas?