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Too anyone who is having these symptoms

Yes it's been 6 weeks now. Not sure what to suggest but also looking for answers....
 
I'm on month 4 heading to month 5 pretty soon. My day anxiety has definitely improved if not passed. I think I learned to accept it and that's what made it go away. But now I gained a new type - night time sleep anxiety. Also have some sort of hyper arousal now. Hyper especially before sleep. I'll be tired half the day then I'll go to bed feeling so aroused I can't sleep for shit. And if I do then I'll have terrible nightmares that'll have me waking up sweating and heart beating 3x faster.

When will this shit finally end. Ughhh
 
Btw, I found some help in binaural beats.

For those suffering depression/anxiety. Put your headphones on, tune out, and listen to this for a good 15-20 minutes:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v49-JlN2m7w


If you feel uncalm/too hyper/aroused, try this:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ncrpcbX9L3A


It may sound crazy at first, but after 10 minutes I bet you you'll feel a difference. In the first once I was laughing to myself for no reason after about 10 minutes. I have still yet to try the deep sleep ones.
 
Justsomeone said:
Hey Guys,

I am/was experiencing the same as you all. Eventhough i am at the very end of my journey, i wanted to tell you my experience so you or other people in the future can get something positive out of it and will be reminded that you will recover from this.

So, here goes..

Six weeks ago I took a half a pill of xtc along with a whole lot of beer. It was my first time and on the night itself everything was cool..no problems. The next morning i woke up with a little hangover, but other than that i was fine. The weather was good so i went barbequeing(?lol) with friends and also had alot of beer. Great day, no problems. Then the nightmare began.

Woke up totally messed up. My symptoms:

*massive headache
*extreme tingling sensations throughout my head
*short term memory destroyed. completely gone
*felt like my iq was cut in half
*still felt extremely high, like a bodily high, but a bad one
*lights way to intense(couldnt watch tv for 2 weeks)
*no emotions(other than sheer panic ofcourse)
*And the worst of them all..depersonalisation. (felt like i was not living in the here and now, but lagging a second behind..like being a spectactor of yourself...very nasty

To make a very long story very short:

Its been six weeks and i'm 99% there. Emotionally and mentally i have been 100% recovered for at least two weeks. After the depersonalization went, the derealization came. Also nasty. It felt like normal was not quite normal. Like the spark that made reality real was missing. Luckily since about a week that has also gone. Right now the only complaints im having is very slight vision problems along with a very slight headache altough since the last like 3 days they both have cleared up immensly and right now i dont feel any of them.

One last thing. Today i had a free consult by phone with a docter who specialises in people who are having longterm medical problems after druguse(specifically xtc). We have those here in The Netherlands. Had a good conversation with him and he told me some interesting stuff. Like:

i am lucky to have already reccovered so fast in six weeks. Most of the time it takes months.
He worked as a specialist with drugrelated medical issues with people for a couple years and said he talked to/treated about 150 people who had the same experience as me. (The Netherlands has 17000000 people so its a rare thing to happen but you're not the only one)
I should realy be very careful/dont use any kind of harddrug again, cause somehow my brain is very sensitive to the stuff)
I will be fine in a matter of weeks. He said i shouldnt be surprised if it would still take like a month or even two to completely get rid of my last symptoms. It is hard to tell, but it will go away.

O yeah, he asked me what i did, cause he was like.. 'you are recovering faster than most people'. I said the only thing that made me feel better from day one was excercise. I was/still am running at least 6 kilometers a day. Get a good sweat out. Also once i got all my emotions back, I noticed listening to music helps alot too. Music is food for the soul indeed. Just wanted to share my story. I am positive you will all recover from this. Hang in there and take care..\

Peace
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Update:

He guys. Its been almost 4 months now since taking that pill so let me give you a quick update about my recovery:

Basicly i am fine. The visual distortions (light sensitivity/ focussing problems) have really improved. Most of the time the light sensitivity is gone. The focussing thing (hard to explain..almost like trouble seeing in 3D) is getting less and less noticeable each week. (wouldnt say day, because a day is nothing when you are recovering from shit like this..you all probably know.)

Mentally and emotionally i am 100% recovered and have been for quite some time now. Had some trouble with speaking for a while(like searching longer for words, trouble forming complex sentences, thinking about how you are going to say what you want to say) but that is as good as gone as well. Right now, the only thing that is still reminding me sometimes about the whole ordeal is the visual distortion thing and still some small tingling sensations around my head/headaches, but to be honest the headaches don't really bother me as much and are very slight. My vision is fine most of the day. When i am at work or at home it is completely normal. But when i go to a supermarket with all those products with all those colours or when i am at crowded places my vision still gets a bit weird.

But like i said, it has been far worse, so im confident that it will eventually go away completely. Right now, i'm just waiting voor those last symptoms to fade out. The first 5 weeks of this experience were the most terrifying. Right now its just a small annoyance. I can go on with my life again and have been doing so since my first post about this 'situation'. Ill post here one more time when all my symptoms have gone and i can report a 100% recovery. I hope and expect to be able to do so within six months. Ofcourse it is hard to guess because like i said this shit takes so long, lord knows how long its gonna take. (Man, i thought i was almost there when i wrote my first post) But at least when i say within six months it means that i feel like im very close to full recovery and expect it to fade out not long from now.

To everybody who is having these symptoms..:) Don't worry. Everything is gonna be allright.

Ciao
 
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Justsomeone said:
H ey Guys,

I am/was experiencing the same as you all. Eventhough i am at the very end of my journey, i wanted to tell you my experience so you or other people in the future can get something positive out of it and will be reminded that you will recover from this.

So, here goes..

Six weeks ago I took a half a pill of xtc along with a whole lot of beer. It was my first time and on the night itself everything was cool..no problems. The next morning i woke up with a little hangover, but other than that i was fine. The weather was good so i went barbequeing(?lol) with friends and also had alot of beer. Great day, no problems. Then the nightmare began.

Woke up totally messed up. My symptoms:

*massive headache
*extreme tingling sensations throughout my head
*short term memory destroyed. completely gone
*felt like my iq was cut in half
*still felt extremely high, like a bodily high, but a bad one
*lights way to intense(couldnt watch tv for 2 weeks)
*no emotions(other than sheer panic ofcourse)
*And the worst of them all..depersonalisation. (felt like i was not living in the here and now, but lagging a second behind..like being a spectactor of yourself...very nasty

To make a very long story very short:

Its been six weeks and i'm 99% there. Emotionally and mentally i have been 100% recovered for at least two weeks. After the depersonalization went, the derealization came. Also nasty. It felt like normal was not quite normal. Like the spark that made reality real was missing. Luckily since about a week that has also gone. Right now the only complaints im having is very slight vision problems along with a very slight headache altough since the last like 3 days they both have cleared up immensly and right now i dont feel any of them.

One last thing. Today i had a free consult by phone with a docter who specialises in people who are having longterm medical problems after druguse(specifically xtc). We have those here in The Netherlands. Had a good conversation with him and he told me some interesting stuff. Like:

i am lucky to have already reccovered so fast in six weeks. Most of the time it takes months.
He worked as a specialist with drugrelated medical issues with people for a couple years and said he talked to/treated about 150 people who had the same experience as me. (The Netherlands has 17000000 people so its a rare thing to happen but you're not the only one)
I should realy be very careful/dont use any kind of harddrug again, cause somehow my brain is very sensitive to the stuff)
I will be fine in a matter of weeks. He said i shouldnt be surprised if it would still take like a month or even two to completely get rid of my last symptoms. It is hard to tell, but it will go away.

O yeah, he asked me what i did, cause he was like.. 'you are recovering faster than most people'. I said the only thing that made me feel better from day one was excercise. I was/still am running at least 6 kilometers a day. Get a good sweat out. Also once i got all my emotions back, I noticed listening to music helps alot too. Music is food for the soul indeed. Just wanted to share my story. I am positive you will all recover from this. Hang in there and take care..\

Peace
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Justsomeone said:
Update:

He guys. Its been almost 4 months now since taking that pill so let me give you a quick update about my recovery:

Basicly i am fine. The visual distortions (light sensitivity/ focussing problems) have really improved. Most of the time the light sensitivity is gone. The focussing thing (hard to explain..almost like trouble seeing in 3D) is getting less and less noticeable each week. (wouldnt say day, because a day is nothing when you are recovering from shit like this..you all probably know.)

Mentally and emotionally i am 100% recovered and have been for quite some time now. Had some trouble with speaking for a while(like searching longer for words, trouble forming complex sentences, thinking about how you are going to say what you want to say) but that is as good as gone as well. Right now, the only thing that is still reminding me sometimes about the whole ordeal is the visual distortion thing and still some small tingling sensations around my head/headaches, but to be honest the headaches don't really bother me as much and are very slight. My vision is fine most of the day. When i am at work or at home it is completely normal. But when i go to a supermarket with all those products with all those colours or when i am at crowded places my vision still gets a bit weird.

But like i said, it has been far worse, so im confident that it will eventually go away completely. Right now, i'm just waiting voor those last symptoms to fade out. The first 5 weeks of this experience were the most terrifying. Right now its just a small annoyance. I can go on with my life again and have been doing so since my first post about this 'situation'. Ill post here one more time when all my symptoms have gone and i can report a 100% recovery. I hope and expect to be able to do so within six months. Ofcourse it is hard to guess because like i said this shit takes so long, lord knows how long its gonna take. (Man, i thought i was almost there when i wrote my first post) But at least when i say within six months it means that i feel like im very close to full recovery and expect it to fade out not long from now.

To everybody who is having these symptoms..:) Don't worry. Everything is gonna be allright.

Ciao
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So dude I'm almost there. My biggest issue is the not feeling my self. Like I find it hard to be as excited about things like I used to. Like music doesn't give me that emotional response I'm used to. Maybe that's part of the depersonalization that's holding me back. Or my dopamine/serotonin is still fucked up. Like biggest way to explain it. I feel like I can go to see an awesome show and usually I'd be dancing all night but now I feel like I would only be into just standing around enjoying the music but not amped up enough to dance out all night. And going to clubs was my favorite thing to do. So I'm kinda bummed.

I'm still having the vision issue but that Dont bother me. I dont even have anxiety anymore. Does everything snap back over night or did emotions come back gradually? 7 months in
 
Hi guys! i am on my 3rd month long term comedown experiencing anxiety, derealization and some mild cognitive impairment.

Everyday I experience the same cycle, I wake up anxious, spaced out with some derealization and as the day progresses I end up feeling almost fine close to 100% me at night. In the morning I have social anxiety where is even hard for me to come out of home but then usually after 7pm I feel good again, sharp, quite social and mostly functional.

Then I go to bed, sleep and wake up in the same nightmare again. I want to think that a lot of my symptoms are related to anxiety but i am not shire.


Have any of you guys experienced the same fluctuations and cycles? If yes, have you recovered greatly?

Looking for some help.
 
so does anyone ever plan on tripping again after this is all over?
or have tripped again?
 
Oh shit. :\

I spent 3 hours reading your stories about long-term comedowns and now I'm really scared to take MDMA ever again (never had a bad experience though and trying to do it responsibly). If anything similar happened to me, it would kill my life and my career (my work requires immense concentration).

Stay strong guys.
 
I already posted this somewhere else.... but

Like Ive really been thinking about taking acid lately. Like a half dose to see what happens. I wanna know how I will respond.

Ive been feeling amazing lately. No anxiety, head is soooo much clearer. Mood is great. Even music is starting to sound good again.

In going to a show (adventure club) this weekend and really wanna take a dose. I wouldnt smoke, I just wanna try to take a very small dose. Im so curious. Would this be a really bad idea?
 
pmz said:
I already posted this somewhere else.... but
Ive been feeling amazing lately. No anxiety, head is soooo much clearer. Mood is great. Even music is starting to sound good again.
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Dude, I know you've been in this shit for quite a while. Are you willing to take that fucking chance? The fact that you're feeling better is awesome, have some beers or something, but don't risk FUCKING IT ALL UP.

I have no idea what a hit of acid would do to you, but I'm pretty sure that it could fuck you up potentially (considering you're on a comedown still). Some dude on here shroomed while on a comedown and it didn't sound pleasant..
 
ScaredFirstTimer said:
Dude, I know you've been in this sh it for quite a while. Are you willing to take that fucking chance? The fact that you're feeling better is awesome, have some beers or something, but don't risk FUCKING IT ALL UP.

I have no idea what a hit of acid would do to you, but I'm pretty sure that it could fuck you up potentially (considering you're on a comedown still). Some dude on here shroomed while on a comedown and it didn't sound pleasant..
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I guess. I was thinking like a half hit. but I guess I should just wait a bit longer
 
Hey everyone,

This is my first time blogging and I have a question.

I took some really good M (one hit) on NYE...it wasnt much but I am still feeling the effects. I have no appetite, crazy anxiety, low sexual drive, and just dont feel like myself. Any ideas?
 
mar151515 said:
Hey everyone,

This is my first time blogging and I have a question.

I took some really good M (one hit) on NYE...it wasnt much but I am still feeling the effects. I have no appetite, crazy anxiety, low sexual drive, and just dont feel like myself. Any ideas?
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just try to relax. stay away from stress. it might be a few more days or a few more weeks. Just relax and try not to let the anxiety get to you.
 
pmz said:
I already posted this somewhere else.... but

Like Ive really been thinking about taking acid lately. Like a half dose to see what happens. I wanna know how I will respond.

Ive been feeling amazing lately. No anxiety, head is soooo much clearer. Mood is great. Even music is starting to sound good again.

In going to a show (adventure club) this weekend and really wanna take a dose. I wouldnt smoke, I just wanna try to take a very small dose. Im so curious. Would this be a really bad idea?
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You keep asking us man... we can't tell you the right answer. You need to access yourself personally and see if you are ready for that kind of experience. If you feel fine, I'm sure you'd have an amazing time... although do NOT take it at a club. Even experienced acid heads can get overwhelmed in that kind of setting.

Take it at home if you do, think about what that "comedown" really did you to mentally. Hopefully you'd be able to work out some of the barriers that we all put up in defense of such drastic changes.





I see little reason LSD would "set you back". It does not effect serotonin in the same way, so there is little to no chance of all the damage "coming back". At worst you could get into a bad mindset which may set you back MENTALLY, but you seem to be in a very stable state of mind at the moment. I would say there is little more risk for you than anyone else taking LSD for the first time. Just listen to your body and be smart about things; I'm sure you know what is best for yourself, deep down.
 
Folley said:
You keep asking us man... we can't tell you the right answer. You need to access yourself personally and see if you are ready for that kind of experience. If you feel fine, I'm sure you'd have an amazing time... although do NOT take it at a club. Even experienced acid heads can get overwhelmed in that kind of setting.

Take it at home if you do, think about what that "comedown" really did you to mentally. Hopefully you'd be able to work out some of the barriers that we all put up in defense of such drastic changes.





I see little reason LSD would "set you back". It does not effect serotonin in the same way, so there is little to no chance of all the damage "coming back". At worst you could get into a bad mindset which may set you back MENTALLY, but you seem to be in a very stable state of mind at the moment. I would say there is little more risk for you than anyone else taking LSD for the first time. Just listen to your body and be smart about things; I'm sure you know what is best for yourself, deep down.
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its true man. Im just trying to gauge what people might have done in the past. You do seem right. it might help me in a very small dose. Or it might be make me more upset about how in now feeling the way I used.

I think the real reason it might hurt me is because I dont have that great euphoric feeling to music at the moment like I used to. Im afraid to try to listen to music while tripping and be grately disappointed and get into a bad mindset. Or it would open a barrier and make me feel music more. I dont know.

I dont think Im ready juuuuust yet. but you have a good way of looking at it though
 
mar151515 said:
Hey everyone,

This is my first time blogging and I have a question.

I took some really good M (one hit) on NYE...it wasnt much but I am still feeling the effects. I have no appetite, crazy anxiety, low sexual drive, and just dont feel like myself. Any ideas?
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Hi

Sounds like me :) Calm down, it's gonna get MUCH better fast. You might not feel like yourself for a little while, and as pmz said, you might need weeks to get back to 100%.

Edit: About the anxiety, if it is an issue. Don't try to fight it, just accept it. It is gonna pass on its own. Just try not to get caught up in the "scenarios" your mind is making
 
I'd like your opinion guys. I have had a bad comedown from rolling two weeks ago. I usually will dose in the range from 100-200mg but this time I took 333mg of molly. I split it in three caps. I popped 2 of them during the night at the same time then the last cap a hour and a half later. Anyways, the actual night went okay although I felt like a zombie, had a little bit of trouble communicating, and felt a little speedy (I believe my molly wasn't cut with speed, rather because I took a lot of E which can produce a speedy effect). I knew the last cap was a mistake because it provided no more positive effects meaning my serotonin was depleted or mostly depleted from the first two caps. Anyways, after all my previous rolls I have always felt a nice afterglow and peacefulness (zero anxiety). This time however immediately on the comedown I felt anxious which has never happened although I know it's common and wasn't worried.

However, I'm a little worried now because I have had mood problems that have still lingered two weeks later. I have been more irritable, depressed, and anxious than I have ever been in a long time. The weird thing is most days would just be low mood (not severely depressed or anything) but yesterday I was the most depressed out of all the days even worse than the days immediately following my roll. I also noticed my cognitive ability was way worse than previous times (but I feel like it is improving each week). I've had memory issues, some trouble with mixing up words, and forgetting words mid-sentence that I would normally come up with right away. I was really 'spacey' a week after and everything felt fuzzy and had some slight visual distortions but that has gone away. Lastly, I am still getting tingling sensations in my head but that has happened in previous comedowns and I think it's just my brain rewiring/healing itself. I have a family history of depression and anxiety and have suffered from it a couple years ago (and some very mild anxiety on a daily basis).

Do you guys think by taking such a high dose that I may have brought up previous depression/anxiety I've suffered from or do you think it is simply a temporary chemical imbalance that will pass in time? I realize a couple weeks is nothing compared to what some of you have been through but I've never had a comedown this lengthy. By the way, I have always spaced out my E usage (minimum of 6 months between rolls) and this is the only roll I've exceeded 200mg. I would like to be the same person I was emotion-wise before I decided to take a stupid amount.
 
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MindOverMatter1, atleast consider this:

The symptoms you are describing are very similar to what most people experience on a "longer" MDMA comedown. I would be pretty sure that it's directly MDMA related, and that it will resolve itself in time. Not necassarily as long as for many of the guys here on BL though. When I first googled this shit I saw many examples of guys and gals who had these exact symptoms for like 2-4 weeks, then returned to 100%.

What I'm trying to say is that I don't think you "brought back" some old anxiety issues.
 
That's what I was thinking. The reasons I am worried is because of my family history, I've never experienced a comedown like this (I've always had a positive afterglow), my past with depression/anxiety, my friends that took the same dose were fine after a couple days, and also the fact that I consider myself strong-minded but not nearly as strong as some of the people on this site. I have a new found respect for this drug. I always knew it was powerful on previous doses but it's amazing how one high dose caused me this road bump in my life. I've realized that I took my mental and brain health for granted by taking this dose. If you respect this drug it will respect you back.
 
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