Hope you guys are well, I am doing great. I am fucking still trying so hard to get a 2nd date with this lovely lady... been driving me completely crazy aha. ahaha. ahahaha. She is too darn cute and silly, you see.
Anyways, I had a run-in with oxy's. My friend got hit by a car, was saying he couldn't get any painkillers scripted so I was going to give him my last oxy script. lol... yeah right. I took 60mg IR and not knowing my tolerance I was a fucking trainwreck. I am actually lucky to be alive, in fact. I was so completely fucked up, that I had my eyes closed most of the time literally nodding off on every nook and cranny of my basement. Seriously, I have never experienced the "ultimate nod" before like that, ever. I had my eyes closed, thought I was laying in bed, and then I'd open my eyes and be doing a downward down on my yoga mat and be like WTF how did I even get here?
The high lasted 12 hours from IR oxy, and then I flushed the remaining 96 down the toilet. As I was already sick after a single day, but not bad. Anyways, def no regrets I'm just glad I didn't overdose! If you ever quit, please be weary of this phenomenon. You will want to use the same amount you are used to for pain or whatev. Well, this amount near KILLED ME. I have NEVER been that fucking trainwrecked in my life. I have actually never had a nod like that in my life, as I was using opiates not for that purpose. However, after experiencing it just once that way, I feel that every time I use opiates ever again (I DO NOT intend to, lesson learned) I would be chasing that nod and always fuck it up somehow. There are so many silly little factors that go into that perfect high it's just not worth it at all and I'd probably end up dead.
I am really proud that I flushed the rest of them because it had an insane street value and with my tolerance would have kept me high and pain free for a really long time. I knew that once was too much. I napped from 2 to 10pm, woke up to a million messages and phone calls to my cell and home from my buddy who was in the car crash asking if I was okay. He heard I was sleeping from roomie... but in the back of his mind he's like, did he really flush them or just say that? Is he really just asleep right now all day like that? You can never trust a junkie but one thing I do know - a junkie would NEVER be able to flush pills like that after having the best opioid high of his life.
I'm just posting in psychedelic discussion now because I can't really have my mind on these drugs. I have this fox in mind omg she is so beautiful and yeah... I never get crazy like this but she's special : ) and super tricky fox, she is. I don't know WTF is going on anymore lol all I know is she likes me for me.
Okay okay this is crazy but JUST RIGHT NOW I GOT THE DATE. Alright I could not be happier! Time to celebrate with a few joints!!! The second date was tough because we both know that if we do this, we are going to fall head over heels in love with each other. She is fucking gorgeous, what she sees in me is that I just don't give a fuck. I yell at our boss and stuff while she is all diplomatic... I scare them into pretty much giving me free work hours where I do fuck all but talk to a colleague about horoscopes and chinese astrology and stuff. Yes!!! This was driving me crazy for weeks! I worked SO hard to get this and the idea I have is super chill!
So btw after the best nod of my life, I didn't give a fuck. wasn't like ohhh noooo I relapsed. I'm so stoned all the time and trippin out and fucking. obsessed. with this beautiful little blonde creature who is just sooo sooo soooooo sexy and soooo funny everything she does makes me laugh internally but like nobody even notices how silly she is but me. It's too funny we are happy when we chill out! Our first date was supposed to be like 2 hours and turned into 15. It was ridiculous I can't even begin to describe the adventure she took me on. So... I am taking her on my own adventure this time I am SO happy about this!!! I am falling in love, you see : ) like actually - for the first time ever. I thought I was before, but nothing like this. She has been driving me CRAZY.
So yeah I had the craziest nod of my life, then didn't give a fuck! Just flushed the rest of my oxy down the drain without a second thought I mean I am honestly lucky I didn't drop dead. The nod was SO hardcore it's like what you see junkies like after they take a massive shot and are totally out of it, slouched over and stuff just in total bliss. It was like that. Never experienced anything like that as I always kept my doses to constant pain relief and like for energy / anti-depressant effects. Never gave a fuck about the nod. I'm glad I didn't, because if I chased that high, I would not live very long even knowing what I know now let alone when I was a noob...