Back from the brink, just cause you mentioned that chick. Well, I had lost interest as I can sniff out a narcissist like a dope dog can sniff out a mountain of dank. I was going to say without the deceit but realized it would be wrong to say so.
Anyways, she was the girl who complained to our boss about me and got me fired since she was his first hire. I was covering all their shifts while that bitch was in the tropics for a month. This was a job I took seriously it is pretty shit as I feel I did not deserve it at all and usually, I am pretty understanding. My other friend from work, I can't really trust either and she was a great friend since my boss told me to stop bothering them (that was the only thing that annoyed me about this, the job is shit).
Tis my luck with women. She said I was an impulsive, explosive junkie and she went on to explain exactly why I have ruined my life. I told her, if I thought the way she thought about myself (I don't... it's the most pessimistic possible outlook on my life) I'd slash my wrists and end it because honestly I would. It's unbelievable how all of a sudden, out of nowhere, she started criticizing me like crazy. I used to joke about how she used to criticize all these silly things on our dates, but I never realize she would do that to a friend without a second thought, so non chalantly and then never speak to them again. I always thought she was the type of chick who would get married and divorced like 10 times anyway and the last time I saw her she said she got married at 18 and divorced like 2 years later and on and on. I'm not there to listen to your bullshit history with pricks when I'm still getting to know you. I like a girl from the yoga studio she is a receptionist and really cute. So yeah I smoked a lot of chron tonight. In fact I called in the pharmacy to see if I could get an oxy's refill but I couldn't, at least not yet. I would want heroin anyway.
So hopefully I have better luck next time I'm really into yoga now and that one receptionist looks like Taissa Farmiga she's really sweet too. Actually, two girls at yoga but that would be a foolish thing to dwell on much. One girl volunteers there for free classes and I should ask her to go to one. I go because I feel like slitting my wrists half the time and it helps though, with my chronic back pain and panic disorder and insomnia and posture alignment and all these things it's really great after you've destroyed yourself and don't want to at least give it 3 months before doing anything stupid, if possible.
