being careless with biooze and benzos tonight because ti'm tired. Both my best friends have fallen out with ech toher and now i'm slowly disspearing from both their lives, my girlfirned can't be arsed with me anywmore and dosen't give a shit, no one does. I'm failing uni again, my parents see me a s a dirt dropiut druggy, my ex girlfriemd of three years got over me in a week.
I do't get it. I work hard to be happy and everything goes to shit again. No one can seem to like me for long, and even then I',m never really anyones priortity. Just done with at all. Etizo;lam and alcohol helps numb it.