Can't believe this but -
Right before Christmas, on Christmas Eve, I slipped and fell on some ice. Don't know if it was the way I fell, the ground or whatever but it really f**ked up my left leg. I just went home, but by Christmas I could not put any weight on it.
Anyway, I've been clean from dope for 6 years, and have rarely used opiates. So the pain was so great that I gave in and got a script for oxy. I didn't bang it up or anything, but took it as prescribed for only TWO days. I figured that I would manage the rest.
Anyway, fast forward 12 hours after my last dose of oxy. Only two days and 6 years clean. I'm in immediate withdrawals. I thought i first it was a trick on my mind, so I just ignored everything but by day 3 I was ready to call my dealer.
Now I don't buy into 12-step stuff, but I have to admit that some of it helped me through the hell I went through. I don't know whether to call this a slip-up, I mean in a way I gave in but the pain was so bad that I was crying. I did NOT think that two days of moderate oxy use would put me back into a hell.
I know from reading that some old-time addicts, who, using after many years, experience withdrawal from only a small to moderate amount of opiates, exist. But why the hell? I'm not even going to cry about it, I already have. I have a job now, I'm good, I'm off MMT and I'm just doing my own thing. I don't want that to change. What I want to know is why the withdrawal happened. It was not as bad as a heroin withdrawal, but was still hell.