Don’t get down on yourself man, I know it’s hard. I have been in and out of addiction for 20 years. Part of me wants to live sober, but only half. It’s a straight Jekyl and Hyde situation. I have been down and out so many times, was homeless for 4 and a half years. I have given up and considered suicide more times than I can count. Before when you started this thread you always went to work and busted your ass man, so someone will be bound to hire you. Just keep searching and get back into work mode and you will have a job easily. I had to start over at the bottom for the 7th time in 2015, no bullshit. All those days you went into work waking up at like 5:00 in the morning and walking to and from work, you have been granted a high level of motivation and determination. Unfortunately that applies to getting drugs as well, trust me I am the exact same way. So keep your head up man and just move forward, I am here to support you however I can.