First off, sorry for the delayed reply. We don't have wifi in our apt, so my husband and I have to take turns with the laptop.
MDB, I never denied that there weren't certain people who offered me kindness or were cool to talk to straight off the bat. I even mentioned you as one of them in one of my posts. Forums are something of a microcosm of real life, so there's always a huge array of dynamics going on at once, and a lot of times only fragments of the bigger picture are known by the majority. I've had experiences that I've shared with you, via PM, instead of unloading in some cases when I've been upset over something. And I realize that we ALL have problems we're dealing with outside of this forum, in day to day life. I know I'm not the only one, or 'special' in that regard. I was trying to make amends for perhaps not grasping how certain things ran here, as I can be overly sensitive. And I have met people here whose support I value greatly. At the same time, like I mentioned earlier, I'm not the best with banter and am reticent to jump in, particularly as a newcomer. I have and have had social anxiety since I was a teenager. I don't say that to make excuses, I say that just to explain why I might see things through perhaps a different set of eyes than someone else who is more outspoken, for example. I also tend to over analyze, so I was just admitting or trying to own up to anyone I perhaps rubbed the wrong way. And in regards to recent incidents, I did try to make amends with that individual. I'm merely posting my experience. We all have problems, and I'm glad you've found the support you need here. I just was upset over certain things that transpired and felt guilt over them as well. That said, I didn't mean to condemn the group as a whole. If anything, I was just sorry if actions were taken that upset the longer term members.