Exhilarating story. I don't really think that's just your first "hole" as others have opined, but there are themes of "holing" that are shared with the experience you describe. Rather, it's a type of hole where death and eternity loom larger for some reason, heh. I've been there a couple of times before on disassociatives, minus the trashing anything or anyone else being around, thankfully. Yeah, that whole "every moment I'm experiencing is me returning to the eternal moments that bookend my death and rebirth" experience will spin your head every time, but the first is obviously the scariest. I've also done the water thing, too, ha ha (it actually makes some sense, it's just funny to imagine how we must've looked gulping down water with such supercritical determination). My doses weren't as high as yours, though it's hard to gauge because the one time it was 600 mg DXM and 100 mg MXE, whereas the other it was just 80 mg MXE and too much jwh-018.
Thays all the visuals really are from my experience. The Only time I noticed oevs it kind looked like someone put a cartoony glow around shit. Texture was really visible and glowing kinda twisting. Twisting worm holes are what I noticed. Nothing out there but the batch wasnt the greatest I dunno. I wish people would treat research chemicals like novelties instead of just Drugs that can be taken whenever for however long. I gurantee if people would not hype things up and just use on occasion things like mephedrone and methylone would still be legal but thats kinda hard when your on the substance but really neither here nor there. Yea visuals...
see if you look at it like that it kinda gives a whatever vibe to the whole topic coltdan. I am not pointing fingers at anyone I just wish those who dont got it under control would get a clue. It may be their body but its not their community and ruining potentionally good chemicals from future use or research just bothers the hell out of me. It doesn't matter though like I said before I was never a big huge mxe fan to begin with. The mania honestly pissed my watcher off and I guess that proves whatpsood0nym is saying. Anything that makes you act out of control against your own will is bad news for an everyday thing or maybe altogether. Vendors should make customers do a written test before they can buy chemicals like these. Bah.
I wasnt pinpointing at you bud. I know how manic and controlling it gets when your there. It made me act really stupid at a mediocre dose so at 80mgs I wouldn't expect anyone to be together.
80 mg is surely strong for anyone without a tolerance, but I would not think "amnesic rampaging" to be nearly as common at that level as at his dosage. It's also relevant to note that those with a ketamine tolerance might actually be in greater danger of this kind of behavior with MXE because I would think a ketamine tolerance would only make you substanitially tolerant to MXE's NMDA mediated effects (whereas psychotic reactions to MXE arguably owe more to likely PCP like pharmacological properties [e.g. D2 activation) that ketamine does not have in as high a degree as MXE). Those tolerant to K may therefore dose higher to reach their preferred level of NMDA antagonist effects and subsequently be hit with these other suspected patterns of effects they're not as tolerant to. Ketamine shares some of these other pharacological properties with PCP (like PCP receptor activity), but they're comparatively weak if I recall correctly.