edit... just saw your post perpetual down as I posted this. Thanks for the encouragement. Some months back I started experiencing opiate PAWS symptoms really bad, had issues before I started using them that I have to deal with. Xorkoth, you should try micro or low dosing it would probably leave you with a lasting glow. did you write a trip report on your Ibogaine? Actually, I should read through this whole thread. I am fascinated by this compound and how it is helping me not just with paws symptoms but with much deeper psychological issues, it seems - and also acting as a cognitive enhancer, or nootropic I would go as far to say. Also it is enhancing my athletic performance, most likely through awareness, and this is good for my chronic back pain and repairing my brain.
I read that too, about how it was marketed as a stimulant in France. Probably as an aphrodisiac too, at that dose. Also, used spiritually by African tribes and as a coming of age ritual. I think the history of Ibogaine would be really interesting in general, how it came to be used in Africa and then France and maybe other parts of Europe.
It is amazing stuff and only getting better as I keep taking more. Took my highest dose yet today, I can feel it building up. I feel like myself again, after a journey through rough times. Like waking up. I feel like how I felt when I was maybe 21, like a decade ago, before I really started to abuse heavier stuff than weed and some booze. I somehow feel renewed, and I can't quite put my finger on what it is.
For the first time since quitting opiates like really Quitting this time, I no longer feel that I have anhedonia or a lack of motivation. I no longer feel that I have confidence issues with my career. I know that I have a lot of work to get there, but I know I can do it. I've applied to like two jobs all year. Before Ibogaine I was so damn depressed in post-acute withdrawal it was worse than the fucking acute withdrawal. Cycling between depression, insomnia, panic attacks... the energy has changed. I feel like getting out on my bike and enjoying the beautiful scenery through the trails, watching the teams play soccer and baseball as I ride by. Enjoying the sunset. Smoking way less weed, and making an occasion of it, doing something other than just being stoned and thinking philosophical thoughts that get me nowhere. Developing, naturally, a healthier relationship with the cannabis plant. No issues sticking to an etizolam taper yet, when interdose withdrawals hit I am usually stoned and with the Ibogaine now I find that I can generally keep busy except for the last hour when it becomes a lot to handle.
I am using a combination of TA extract and (relatively pure, extracted) Ibogaine. I am getting into old hobbies, and reading well first of all reading to begin with, but at a very fast and engaged pace. I feel like it can treat adult ADHD really well, which I'm pretty certain I might have. It really helps me to remain calm and collected while stimulating my mind and allowing me to actually focus on something for more than 10 minutes without getting bored or depressed.
I will continue to take this so long as I benefit from it. Does it have open-eye visuals when you start to trip harder by the way? The way I am experiencing reality has changed, and my thought processes... it feels more like I'm dreaming awake. It feels somehow dissociative. And so much motivation. I'm picking up a second language for sure... where I left off before I started getting high way too much.