I would call high dose positive outcomes with this as breakthrough experiences, but the term 'hole' just doesn't match the phenomenology. Its more like reaching a singularity of consciousness and letting go into a high vibrational evolving energy system. Letting the ego out of the way accelerates the evolution and further collapses the singularity. Its an exercise in letting it happen and just observing the incredible energy manifestation. Lord it is hard to put it into words, Ill give it another shot someday.
I would strongly recommend against using this drug for the most part, because it definitely costs you some karma points in some very important places as Solipsis mentions. This is definitely a functional anti-depressant for me for the most part but I feel like 90% of people who I give a small dose of this to will have an unpleasant reaction. This is really kind of garbage head territory imo, and best left for people who are desperate to overcome desperate times.
Otherwise, using it functionally can work for a few people and I think that's fine, i just don't think this drug is anything we should be promoting at all. While my bandmates all agree I play like Geddy Lee while using it, ultimately my emotional shifts make it a little too much to handle in the end. After my current bag is gone, I won't be using any PCP derivatives for a long time. Gonna move to mellower substances. Probably just milder dissociatives, milder empathogens and psychedelics. I couldn't be more thankful for how its helped me though.
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How do you guys feel about 3-MeO probably having the same long term effect potential as PCP considering how similar it acts?:
- "Runs" - Chronic users may binge use PCP, taking it repeatedly for 2 or 3 days at a time without eating or sleeping, followed by a period of sleep. These runs may occur as many as four times in a month. Yes, runs for sure, except I have no impairment of eating or sleeping during them. Well my sleep quality is probably less but I still sleep, and I have absolutely no problems eating plenty. I actually will go for 4 or 5 days in a row sometimes. Keep in my when I use 3-MeO-PCP I only use it in 2-3mg doses separated by 1-2 or more hours. I will use like 15mg total in an entire day. I feel no urge to use more than that, except once in a while I will purposely take larger doses and get "wonky", but maybe once a month.
- Impaired memory Yes, I get word recall issues during usage that become worse as the run becomes longer. Not too bad. Again, I use pretty low doses. But frequently.
- "Flashbacks" similar to those experienced by chronic LSD users Never had such a thing from any drug
- Persistent speech problems, such as stuttering, inability to articulate, or the inability to speak at all I get minor stuttering when I become dissociated on 3-MeO. When I dose normally (for me), I never become dissociated, I do it because it gradually builds a really lovely and inspiring hypomania and I like that state. Any dissociative makes me stutter/slur when I become dissociated and this is no exception, MXE does it quite a bit worse. I have a friend who does a lot of 3-MeO who slurs very badly on it. She tends to take much larger doses than me.
- Chronic and severe anxiety and depression, possibly leading to suicide attempts I have gotten worn down from it which leads to feeling flat emotionally, but I would say various other drugs produce much deeper lows for me after abuse. I have had months where I low-dosed 3-MeO probably 6 out of every 7 days, and had surprisingly few issues. Once again I want to emphasize that I use it almost as sort of tonic or something, for me it is not a drug for getting fucked up on.
- Social withdrawal and isolation I generally don't like using it anywhere near as much except in social situations (I enter social situations most days of my life). If anything, the hypomania from it makes me want to be social more.
- Toxic psychosis may appear in chronic users who do not have a prior history of psychiatric disturbances. The symptoms of toxic psychosis are aggressive or hostile behavior, paranoia, delusional thinking and auditory hallucinations. Never had this from it. However I have never had this from anything.
http://www.cesar.umd.edu/cesar/drugs/pcp.asp
^^ Yeah that's how it is for me too. Oddly the first time I tried combining them I felt they combined terribly. But after that it's been crazy how well they synergize. It's just like how you describe, it's like the 3-MeO opens your brain up and allows the LSD to seep into every crevice. You can trip really hard off a small amount.
One time after I had run through my entire 250mg-ish of 3-MeO-PCP over about the course of a week I realized I had a 100mcg blotter of LSD sitting around and took 1/4 of it. I started feeling so good that I ended up taking the rest over the next hour and it was probably the best I've ever felt from LSD, the only word I could use to describe the feeling would be "divine." I never really got much visual distortion but music sounded amazing and it felt like every pore in my body was radiating joy in it's purest form.