so I took a hit and held it in, immediately feel an amazing rush my eyes open wide, everything is so indescribable the longer I hold it in the more intense my surroundings become. I exhale and start wondering what I had just done. did I just destroy my brain? will I ever come back? thoughts of uncertainty run through run around like crazy. I am then taken away by the most amazing euphoric feeling of happiness and appreciation of life and how amazing and complex my everyday life is. nothing in life is routine. I think about my life and how complex it really is. Going to work is not just going to work. it is a huge web seemingly endless interactions of people with there own thoughts, ideas attitudes feelings ect. . I think of how many things are actually going on that i seem to tone out in my everyday life. i realize how I present myself, how I impact others, how everything in this life is not just another day.
what I took from this is the feeling of wanting to live more than ever. I now realize that every moment in everyday is something that should be appreciated. not taking for granted.