i wish suboxone did something for me... i have basically given up on it. even when i'm on it i still crave opiates and i hate taking it and i dont want to take more than i'm taking and my doc Rx'd me another 2mg a day (he thinks i'm on 4mg a day, and i take a little less than 1mg a day). so now i'm scripted 6mg a day. i haven't taken it in a about 20 hours... just snorted a whole bunch of oxycodone IR and took xanax 2mg, klonopin 2.5mg, diphenhydramine, and gonna smoke a big fat bowl of haze. i am in the shittiest fucking mood ever.
i left my guys house with my goodies, and on the way home i'm driving 25-32mph somewhere in that range, and the light is green, car in front of me going the same speed as i am, puts on blinker signaling she is turning left and proceeds passed the line to stop and looks like she is turning but it just turned yellow and she jams on her breaks and i was about to go around her and jammed on my breaks but skidded into her car and then sandwiched between that and the curbed. i back out and my car is all fucked up and this stupid bitch gets out of her car and starts freaking out cuz her silver car has a few scratches that are easy as fuck go get out (maybe $150-250 worth in damages to her car MAX, not even that, no dents or anything). while my car is fucked to hell, the front end now scratches the ground when i hit a bump and the left front light is completely shattered and broken and the left front panel is destroyed (at least $750-1250 in damages. not to mention my insurance is going to skyrocket, i just got fired from my job or quit actually because i have had a panic attack at least once a day EVERY DAY since i started and my doc wont give me any more benzos (2mg klonopin / day) and keeps giving me more bupe (6mg / day, i take 1mg / day). and is telling me i have to take fucking zyprexa at night for insomnia and i can't take sonata anymore or even another mg of klonopin. i hate it, i couldn't tolerate lexapro, paxil, paxil CR, prozac, wellbutrin SR, wellbutrin XL, imipramine, trazadone, straterra, cymbalta, pregabalin, and he tells me to "stop reading stuff online" even tho most of what i read (and believe) turns out to be true (or is) about medications, especially the SSRIs and i coulldn't tolerate 2.5mg of LEXAPRO a day, and he thinks i should go on 5-10mg of zyprexa a day? (i know its a low-ish dose, but i am not going to be able to go on a neuroleptic without having hardcore side effects that i can't stand, side effects were the reason i had to get off of all the anti-d's i was on).
ugh. life sucks fucking ass. yes this is 75% journal entry, eat my shit. and if you dont want to , eat a lot of food, then go to 2girls1cup.com (or something like that) and be prepared to see the hottest shit ever!
Nah but on the real what would you suggest, waitin til there aint nothin in my system?