I hate you for nodding off of tramadol/xanax lol...
If I'm trying to get fucked up it takes like 120+mg MS or 8-10mg xanax alone, so maybe 60-90mg MS mixed with 6mg xanax would make a good cocktail for me lol...nodding on opioids though is nigh impossible lol...
On the propofol note...last time I received it, I fought it (didn't last but about 4 seconds lmao) and it seemed to have a euphoric quality to it...
lol not being able to get opiates regularly has been very beneficial, and after im done with all this, im gonna go into another 3 months with no opiates. i really wish that they didnt build such fast tolerance, though, because tolerance is what causes ODs and empty bank accounts. im even having a slight tolerance, after taking percocet and tramadol more frequently this week (3 days where i used, average of 4 pills oxy and 3 pills tramadol, equalling 20mgs and 150 mgs, respectfully). this week put my drug use into perspective, with the meth and all, and just asking myself why i use it, when i barely have any fun on it, and it just fucks my mind and body up to the point where its more of a poison than a fun drug. my drug of choice has been defined by whats available, not what i enjoy. what i enjoy is things that make me less anxious. relaxed, and euphoric. ketamine, oxy, weed, the like. if i could only get oxy and k slightly more often than a few times a year. cocaine is up there as well, but my chances of finding decent coke are less than me getting a solid hook for 4-MAR (which i wouldnt want). the last coke i had was a 6 inch long, 1/4 inch wide line that this guy spotted me, and i snort it, and i feel as if i did a half keyshot of the coke i used to get, and not the good coke either.
and yeah tramadol for some reason makes me nod more than a lot of opiates, even oxy, or heroin. on those drugs i tend to just feel as if i could nod, but if intry, i cant. unless the heroin is good, which it generally isnt around here, unless its ECP, which is really rare in LA. with tramadol, it just takes a little push from some benadryl and possibly xanax (not necessary) to have me nodding at the sink, pouring a glass of water.
still contemplating the percocet... i guess i dosed dph a few hours ago, so it wont potentiate the oxy so much, and it would probably take 15mgs to get me where i want to be without dph, because i took my last one...
ill contemplate this over a bong hit.