Don't do meth anymore if you can't handle it dude. It's so bad.
yeah i try to keep it as infrequent as possible, but i doubt that i have the willpower to NEVER take it again. id enjoy being able to stay away from it forever, id feel so much better, but i cant imagine going without a somewhat regular source of euphoria (i cant get opiates or coke or ketamine very easily, and i prefer them to meth in every way, the only reason i use meth instead of them is because of price and availability. if i had all the drugs in the world ready at my disposal all of the time, id probably being doing bong hits, ketamine and opiates all the time. i can handle meth, the only problem i have with it is the fact that i talk myself into unhealthy ROAs and usage habits, like redosing. if i had desoxyn instead of crystal, id probably enjoy it a lot more, and i would be saving myself a lot of difficulty. for now, im gonna try improving my unhealthy usage habits by using only oral and rectal ROA, no snorting smoking and certainly no more IV. if that helps then "handling" my speed will be no difficult task.
it wouldnt matter to me if meth wasnt so fucking toxic, but it is, so yeah, i have to watch it.
for the time being, this month or two is going to be all weed and oxy, and hopefully some ketamine. i cant deal with any drugs that arent stress-relieving (opiates, weed, not stimulants or psychedelics) during this period in my life, too much shit happening: grandfather dying, parents divorcing, and to top it all off, I'm sleeping in a car that i cant drive that i parked at my cousins house and i keepmlosing every job i get. the only thing that keeps me sane is lots of weed and school.
youre right, i should stop meth, at least until my issues get resolved.
