Wow I'm loving all the music.
Sounding good tnw... cj, I like the riffs. I got a nice loop pedal recently and it's so fun to build loops, or just play over a single one. You use a delay pedal? Playing with yourself with delay is really, really cool, it's taught me a lot about rhythm and harmony. Solipsis man, you really play beautifully. Also, you have a really great recorded sound. Is it a real piano or is it a really nice electric? I have a really nice electric piano that feels virtually identical to a grand piano, I've gotta spend a few hundred $ on it though as it's about 16 years old and some of the keys aren't working anymore and the sustain pedal is about wrecked. My other good keyboard has a great piano sound but not as nice as what you've got there.
Okay guys I want to post the tracks of my band's EP, I'm gonna post the playlist, they fade into one another so if you want to hear it, you should listen from the beginning. It's 5 tracks, about 25 minutes total. I may take this down later, I'm not super into the idea of people at large knowing who my band is. I'm pretty happy with it, we got 500 of them printed, we used my art for the album art and we did all the recording and mixing ourselves at home, except for the final mastering. My favorite tracks are 2-4.
https://soundcloud.com/intergalacticpropulsionmodule/sets/ipm-fever-dreams-ep. Headphones are good because there are a lot of directional details.
Here's something different, it's myself playing to long repeats on my delay pedal, cycling through various sounds. Each thing I play repeats like 20 times before stopping. Really extra super trippy stuff.
https://soundcloud.com/user-636222547/e-alone-delay-long-repeats-7-26-17
https://soundcloud.com/user-636222547/e-alone-delay-long-repeats-7-26-17-2
I have a really long jam from when Crashing visited and we jammed together with my band, too.
There were times when I worried about people worrying. I felt bad but was in such a bad place I would dissociate from everything. This place was always a safe haven where I could be 100% honest. In life it can be hard for me especially to be open with people totally. For years i didn't want to let anyone in. I couldn't let them see how bad I hurt because I couldn't stand to see anyone hurt or worry over me. It was a truly vicious cycle. This place was a place where I could unleash it. Weirdly when I had actually attempted to take my life I didn't post about it here due to worry it might cause. It was after more so I would be more open after I learned that's what I needed. It's hard and I know you. I worried about you all the time. Even when I wasn't posting much I thought about it often. I checked in to see if you had posted updates etc. Bonds run deep here IMO. I think of many of you as good friends. I've known many of you for years. I've been posting here for almost ten years. I've been reading posts and TRs here/erowid.
Yep is a sweet dude. It shows in his posts but not to near the entirety of his awesomeness. We'd talk through PM often and it was always about cool out there stuff or our experiences or our lives. Great stuff. I hope he's okay but I know sometimes I'd disappear sometimes, I said it to instill some hope about the situation so I'm glad it calmed you done. It did when I thought about it. It's why I hadn't posted anything about it myself sometimes. People disappear all the time from it here, it sucks for sure....
Yeah I remember being worried about you a variety of times. I actually always worry if I haven't heard from someone in a while, even if they've been in a good place... after all, psood died, but I never worried about suicide with him. Shit happens to people and sometimes we will never know why someone disappeared. With people who really are part of the community it's a little different though because you know that people will be worried about you. Back in 2011, my ex commanded me to never visit Bluelight again, and I stuck to that for the remainder of our relationship but I did sneak back in once to let people know that I was going to disappear. There are people on here that I definitely worry about... got some in my "real" life too.
Honestly I think the Internet is a perfectly valid and even good place to make friends/connections. I mean I met my girlfriend online... so did almost all of my friends who got into relationships more recently. Some of my best friends who are the biggest parts of my life today I met on Bluelight and knew them for years before we ended up in the same town.