howlowhowlstheowl
Bluelighter
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- May 18, 2017
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Thanks Cotcha as always very informative. I know it's early. Even during the ssri WD I didn't see any improvement until about 7 months.
I'm not exactly sure why now the morale fell. It may be a culmination of a few things happening. So far I've been in waiting mode, hiding from the world so to speak and now the walls are caving in. This is an inhumane way of being. I am/was an engineering student and was supposed to start a new job this summer. People have been calling and texting but I don't know what to say so I haven't said anything. When one spends weeks on end in this altered messed up trippy state it's hard to imagine one day being a part of the world again.
I do believe you're right about the cranial nerves being involved somehow. I did have zaps and they were exactly like that, when I moved my eyes. The eyes have calmed down a little bit from the beginning. I might very cautiously consider other medications at a later time, perhaps lamotrigine. SSRIs though, it sometimes scares me how people on this forum take them lightly. Like fnono who was worried about his coffee intake but seemed completely not worried about the drug. I've hesitated to mention this but there are people on the ssri wd forum(s) who are just as severely sick as the ltc sufferers. At first I was wondering if the same vulnerability might've been at play but it doesn't seem to be the case seeing that many here can use those drugs safely.
Earlier I wrote that alparazolam ("xanax") seemed to bring me at least close to normality. I haven't taken one now in over a month, and I'm starting to wonder if I was bs'ing myself. I might try to see how much it can help, and did it really make this eye thing go away as well. On the other hand I want to let the brain do it's thing. Benzodiazepines are another class of drugs I would definitely not feel comfortable taking regularly. Besides I'm already so fatigued always that they would be unlikely to make me any more functional. I'm not sure but I feel that adding more chemicals might prevent the brain from balancing itself and after that ssri fiasco my belief in psychiatry is not very strong. I simply don't think we are quite there yet with the science of it all.
I'm not exactly sure why now the morale fell. It may be a culmination of a few things happening. So far I've been in waiting mode, hiding from the world so to speak and now the walls are caving in. This is an inhumane way of being. I am/was an engineering student and was supposed to start a new job this summer. People have been calling and texting but I don't know what to say so I haven't said anything. When one spends weeks on end in this altered messed up trippy state it's hard to imagine one day being a part of the world again.
I do believe you're right about the cranial nerves being involved somehow. I did have zaps and they were exactly like that, when I moved my eyes. The eyes have calmed down a little bit from the beginning. I might very cautiously consider other medications at a later time, perhaps lamotrigine. SSRIs though, it sometimes scares me how people on this forum take them lightly. Like fnono who was worried about his coffee intake but seemed completely not worried about the drug. I've hesitated to mention this but there are people on the ssri wd forum(s) who are just as severely sick as the ltc sufferers. At first I was wondering if the same vulnerability might've been at play but it doesn't seem to be the case seeing that many here can use those drugs safely.
Earlier I wrote that alparazolam ("xanax") seemed to bring me at least close to normality. I haven't taken one now in over a month, and I'm starting to wonder if I was bs'ing myself. I might try to see how much it can help, and did it really make this eye thing go away as well. On the other hand I want to let the brain do it's thing. Benzodiazepines are another class of drugs I would definitely not feel comfortable taking regularly. Besides I'm already so fatigued always that they would be unlikely to make me any more functional. I'm not sure but I feel that adding more chemicals might prevent the brain from balancing itself and after that ssri fiasco my belief in psychiatry is not very strong. I simply don't think we are quite there yet with the science of it all.
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