There *are* people though who do get better without any of that so that person is probably just hoping to be one of them. Without a doubt people exist who recovered with meds or biological treatments alone (and im talking not just LTC specific).
The selfhacked guy actually has philosophy posts on this that some people need a change in mindset while others can just recover+it depends on the person. The posts are definitely interesting.
One of the ideas behind major depressive disorder is the depressive
episode - typically people will enter into an episode, either after a clear external stressor or idiopathically, and during the episode they'll often display elevated stress hormones. Then they can go on to be just fine forever, or remit and relapse a few times, and then at that point it becomes major depressive disorder.
After a few episodes, they become more vulnerable to falling into an episode in the future. It could be that the first external stressor was a loved one dying, or it was idiopathic - but after they recover from that initial episode, the latter episodes can tend to be more idiopathic, with no clear acute cause. This is likely because chronic exposure to stress hormones decreases the brain's ability to shut down the stress response (ironically) - the stress hormones then run a muck and affect the cortex and mood related areas of the brain.
So people certainly spontaneously remit without any medications/therapies, but I think people who remit spontaneously without much real accompanying mindset/personality change are probably not as protected from future insults as someone who underwent a major mindset change. Whereas there are people who have recovered from LTCs with mindset changes, and then gone on to use MDMA several times again without problem (Budal comes to mind).
Its possible that the (for lack of a better term) "neurotic mindset" predisposes one to develop issues after MDMA use because the biology is vulnerable, in the same sense that people whose depressive episode is initially triggered by e.g. loss of a loved one often have a history of chronic stress that didn't result in depression. So we may say "The loss of the loved one is the cause", but I don't think we should forsake the previous years of chronic stress or a neurotic mindset.
especially When HC works it seems like all the symptoms vanish and I am like "hmm I didnt need a mindset change--it just went away and I am for all intents and purposes my old self"
I don't think anybody would argue that certain drugs can't cover up symptoms in the short term - take benzos for anxiety for instance. But when the benzo comes out of somebody's system and anxiety returns, they shouldn't say to themselves "Well look the benzo cured me so I don't need a mindset change - its nothing to do with my mindset, its just a chemical imbalance".
The thing is that to me, a neurotic mindset = a chemical imbalance, and drugs like benzos can very powerfully affect mindset and of course chemical imbalances. For somebody with anxiety, there is a dose of a benzo that will just tip the scales back to normality.
Cortisone is turning up the tone of the hippocampus,
which is ironically the structure that tends to weaken with repeated depressive episodes until people fall into episodes more so idiopathically. Part of what I'm getting at is that if your issue is your hippocampus (of course its more complicated than that), then years of a neurotic mindset or stress prior the MDMA experience could have also contributed to the vulnerable biology. There were a couple things that happened right before your LTC that seemed like they could've contributed, so I do thinks its interesting if you see there being no relationship there, the very long term neurotic mindset aside. I believe there were school finals and stuff with a girl that happened before your MDMA use, I hope my memory serves.
taking the drug (and recovering vowing never to do it again) but then suddenly getting symptoms a month or so later I do not see how I could have "prevented" the onset of the symptoms.
I suppose the question is really whether your lifelong mindset leading up to the LTC had anything to do with developing the symptoms. Its known that some "genes" stick around in the cells for an extended period of time, take for example a gene called DeltaFosB that is expressed in mood related brain regions with amphetamine use and chronic stress. Stress hormone related cell changes can also be delayed.
When the stress hormones affect cortical circuitry, there could be a domino effect that takes a while to reach a symptomatic phase, and these genes will of course be interacting with the neural activity to affect the neurobiology. There are many reasons why symptoms could be delayed after the insult, and many reasons why things that happened years prior (even things that happened in the womb) can add up to becoming symptomatic.
I'm actually surprised that people get so caught up in the idiopathic vs. environmentally induced vs. drug induced thing, I think for the most part people will still have success focusing on treatments that work for symptoms regardless of the cause.
I think Socrilus has said that LTC related depression must be different than MDD because LTC people have these weird drug sensitivities, but there are arguments against this notion:
1. People with MDD
do have bad/weird reactions (
normal people have bad reactions to 5-HTP, even melatonin), and an initial worsening with SSRIs is very common and well known
2. LTC sufferers also frequently have anxiety, and lord knows that people with anxiety have all sorts of weird stuff going on when it comes to med reactions
3. The very nature of the LTC being drug related can often give rise to pharmacophobia, which doesn't necessarily help
In a perfect world we would distinguish between symptoms that had some drug induced component, but for our purposes I don't think mindfulness is out of the question as a treatment because "LTCs are drug related and mindfulness is just for people with external stressors as the cause"
If it works it should work whether I expect it working or not.
I think this is like saying "If I do it, it should work whether I do it with proficiency or not".
Scroll down--what i don't get is there is someone who says they have been doing it for a while and they still get negative thoughts/feelings but just don't get pulled away as much by them.
Im not content with that result. I will, however, be content with 0% depression/anxiety.
This is the kind of stuff I hear from people with mental illness that leads me to believe that a fundamental personality change can be helpful, but anyways as far as "still having negative thoughts but not getting pulled away as much", I think that is really the non-reactive/non-judgmental state. So even if the inner monologue is saying that same things or you're having the same thoughts, those thoughts don't hold as much sway over your moods and emotions.
TL;DR - People think their brains were flawless before MDMA, but I say people had some vulnerable biology and MDMA just added some more vulnerability and lit the fuse