If I did mxe when I was younger my experience would equal your one.
I was a bit older like 30 when I first had a 'k-hole'. I've had ketamine in the past but didn't enjoy it as I used it in a club, let alone having a k-hole in a club, I'm sure I would have freaked out.
I loved k-holing on mxe, once it wears off have a few beers and talk a bit of crap to the house mates. Then take more mxe.
Cunts banned that brilliant substance because cunts couldn't handle their shit on it.
It's the only RC which is better and safer than the original. (that I'm aware off anyways)
Psychedelics/dissociatives are for home use only imo. Shrooms, lsd, mxe(ketamine) and when you feel confident in them without 'peer pressure'.