Mate, I'm not lecturing you but we have seen this sort of thing play out a lot of times on here over the years and often it doesn't end well. Please reconsider.
Ordinary mind, ordinary body, extraordinary quantity and variety of drugs to introduce into that system
EDIT: goddamn it, looks like I lost that post. The gist of it is I can't promise anything but I will sleep on it and keep an open mind as to how i'm going to allow the next 2/3 days to play out. I appreciate the concerns expressed by don and consumer, very rightly so as I am clearly in a pretty dark place. If nothing else, the fact that you took the time to express your concern in a very well dictated manner means a lot to me. It cut through the apathy I've been harboring and at the very least, I can assure you your comments/thoughts will be examined again when I'm not quite as fucked (visual psychedelics really do fuck with your functionality)