I know this is probably all over talked but I kind of wanted to have my say and get some advice.
I've been smoking pot since I was 18 years old, after I had my son and got really depressed. Now, I had ADD (unmedicated), Lupus and Diabetes. I mostly take pot/legal weed now only because I'm a writer and it helps me FOCUS more clearly and not take forever to write.
I went off Weed because it was playing HAVOC on my lungs and I gave it up only after I found this fake weed. I've been smoking 4 months now, well I was.
I started to get; lazy, tired all the time, headaches, and I would get INCREDIBLY angry and irritated if I didn't have it after 12-24 hours. It got to a point where I was smoking a 3g pack of the strongest in 2 days. My skin got dry, my eyes sunk in a little and then I started to get heart palpitations and ended up in hospital.
I gave up three days ago.
It's the hardest thing I've ever had to do in my life. I can't go back to pot cos I went to try and ended up having an asthma attack (all 4 times I tried). I'm unfocused, shaky, angry/irritated and heavily depressed.
I want it back so bad.
But all the above tells me NO NO NO.
I have to be strong, good luck to you all with it but I'd rather not write than feel like I relied on this for the rest of my life.
Anyone got any ideas to help me focus?