You know.. I hear folks on different sites say they recovered and all and I just hear all this negative shit like it could be this or that.. scared tactics which it sounds like to me.. I'm trying to recover and cone on this site to hear postive recovery stories and I don't.. who funds this site? Forum 1969 you talk like you will never recover .. wtf... You say I will never get back to normal? Who say that? You got back to 99% better and you don't believe in one more %?? Let me guess birdman is going to reply next as usual whenever you write.. who funds this site? Whatever happened to morrow, ouchie, Vinny, etc.. I'm about through with this site because when you Google it it would have some of my previous statements on the site.. who put that on their? Let me guess that birdman will reply next as usual after forum1969.. lol. How about you instant message me your number and talk or get a better understanding about you.. birdman got on another site and said what he went through and that it? No follow up? I'm still going through this shit but itd getting less.. the anxiety symptoms.. still mental I guess such a persistent thought and or music loop playing.. thay is it.. no panic attack, no depression except more of worrying of how long will this last.. but damn on this site it seems like no f***kin hope.. go on sycronium site and a dude talks about how he recovered.. forsackmic I think on this site talks about it too and on drug forum jcjn2000 talks about its not permanent.. I just try to listen to more positive stories and when I get in here wtf.. have a good day and if people recovered let me know by insant message because a lot of folks on here are full of shit... Or I could be wrong... But lets be positive...
I just tried to PM you my number so we can talk but I am not a bluelighter, if you are part of the other forum where I have my story posted, please send me a message there and I will return it with my number to chat. The reason why I havent really updated the main story is because when i start to think about everything I have been through, my face turns beat red, I start feeling light headed and dizzy, I get the ball of energy feeling in my chest and I feel as though I am gonna pass out. It feels like a panic attack is gonna start, i am sorry but I am still dealing with this as well.I have had follow up posts on my story, the last being May 16, 2011, not much has changed since then. I am sorry you are still going through this, but instead of attacking myself or another member, try to help us. I am still only about 80-85%. I get random panic while I drive, I feel short of breathe whenever it is warm or there is stale air. I wish I was making this up, but I live it every day. Hope to hear from you on the other site, I have met alot of friends who are going through similar things.
JBCN 2000 and I speak on the phone every couple of weeks, he is currently helping me stay positive. I speak to a member named Graybeard who is a counselor while trying to give me hope that all of this will eventually go away. I spoke to that guy DAVE on synchronium on the phone, who didnt really go through what I am going through, but he started to feel more normal at the 6 month mark. Well on the 24th, it will officially be 6 months for me. I have scoured the internet just like you looking for answers and have read probably everything you have read. It is hard to keep hope alive because of how long I have suffered, but the other members have helped me through this. Like I said, if you go on drugs forum, i will be more than happy to pm you my number to talk it over. I will ask JBCN also if I can forward his number to you for help as well. We are all in this together, we all made the same choice and we all want to be "normal" again. Noone has any hidden agenda.
Regarding possible supplements, I am on this now.
Carlson Labs Super Daily 2 multivitamin
Carlson Labs Super Omega 3 1000mg x 2 a day
Carlson Labs Vitamin D3 2000ug or whatever that amount is
Carlson Labs Chelated Magnessium 200mg x 2 a day
I am still holding off on taking any xanax or Lexapro as my doctor wanted. Trying to do this naturally.