spice trip
Though I am not certain if this is the place to post about my experience or not, I will start here. I also plan to post this on Erowid as well.
Before ever taking a drag of a cigarette or a single puff of weed in my life I tried synthetic spice. Myfriends smoked weed and spice and loved the spice (obviously stongly addictive) so they aould pick up a three gram bag pretty much every day. The first time I smoked it was called super Kush and was a decent high, I didn't mind it at all so I decided to try it again at some point. a few nights later my friend got a 3 g bag of a spice called Hydro. It had a terrifying demon on the front (with good reason) and without hesitation the people i was with started smoking. Blankets were layed out and water bottles provided for eveerybody, just to make sure set and setting were perfect.
we were somewhere outside of barstow on the edge of the desert when the drugs began to take hold
0 hour- I took one hit of a large bowl of Hydro
+10 minutes- lights trailed, i began forgetting theings and felt a similar inebriation with alcohol
+15 minutes- not going as far as I expected I decided to take 6 more hits aw big as I could make them. This is to date the biggest mistake of my entire life.
+20 minutes- i began spraying febreeze throughout the garage while laughing uncontrollably and made my way to the room filled with blankets.
I do not remember the next five hours of my life. my behavior was described later as a zombie untill i passed out. I couldn't speak or pay attention to any one.
it started like this. as I entered my friends room and layed on the blankets the room became more and more black I realized i was in over my head. you blulighteers know, that feeling when you think "oh shit, too much..." then the fear set in. i became dissalusioned with reality. I was convinced that the universe had created a false conscienceness that allowed me to belive that my friends family even emotion and logic were all non existant and that "I" was doomed to suffer as a stream of chemicals in the black universe for eternity.
then shit got bad
I started to hear a chant that grew louder and louder until, well, try to imagine the loudest a noise can be I describe it as "max universe volume" the chant was a gruesome evil voice that kept repeating the phrase "There is pain, and thus for death" this was accomponied by an indescribable unwanted body load as i plunged deep into hell.
then shit got real bad
to say the next few hours were ++++ would be an understatement and I realize most people would think that is bullshit and I just couldn't handle myself, but the people I was with were tripping intensly hard and agreed that I was in a state beyond a trip. I was slowely being suffocated and stung all over my body while demon goat feet stomped on me pushing into a pit of missery and sin. I felt every negative emotion, pain, sadness, hate, envy everything that could bring me pain was there. a billion billion times worse than any feeling of dredd i have felt sober was consuming me this continued for what I describe as trillions of infinities I was certain that this was going to continue forever. Those are the parts of the trip I remember this was the most indescribable and unimaginable torture I could have gone through and to this day it was the worst experiaence f my life, worse than the death of my father, worse than the knowledge of my mother being a heoin addict while he died. I would never wish such a torture upon any human being no matter what terror they have caused.
Since this I have tried lsd more than once maxing out at three doses and though it did get quite intense at times, it was never one one millionth of what I exprienced on JWH-( 018 )
this Hydro experiance makes any trip since hard to enjoy as feeklings of uneasiness over take me as the trip sets in.