junctionalfunkie
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What kind of things do you omit, if any? Why? Do you think this may have a negative affect on your therapy as a whole?
For example, I have decided not to tell my therapist (whom I feel comfortable talking with about practically anything) about my heroin relapse a couple weeks ago. I had been clean for 8 months and OD'd while alone. I'm lucky to have survived it.
I know my therapist is a professional who won't judge me for something like that, but only try to help. The thing is, I'm doing so well in therapy otherwise, and I can tell she is quite proud of me and the progress we've made together.
I feel like my therapist might feel that she failed in some way if she knew I used, is what I've boiled it down to.
The thing is, I feel I can basicaly talk to her about anything, and I've never found a therapist like that before. We have similar worldviews and attitudes toward living. I'm a straight man and she's a gay woman 20 years older than me and we talk about human sexuality all the time. It's a very productive and enjoyable professional relationship, by and large.
But I do feel a bit guilty keeping this from her. She's well aware of my toxic past and I get the impression that much of her attitude toward me is based on fascination that I was able to conquer (well, apparently not entirely 8)), my heavy and various addictions, as well as the soul-crushing depression I've spent the past 3 years in.
Thoughts, anyone?
For example, I have decided not to tell my therapist (whom I feel comfortable talking with about practically anything) about my heroin relapse a couple weeks ago. I had been clean for 8 months and OD'd while alone. I'm lucky to have survived it.
I know my therapist is a professional who won't judge me for something like that, but only try to help. The thing is, I'm doing so well in therapy otherwise, and I can tell she is quite proud of me and the progress we've made together.
I feel like my therapist might feel that she failed in some way if she knew I used, is what I've boiled it down to.
The thing is, I feel I can basicaly talk to her about anything, and I've never found a therapist like that before. We have similar worldviews and attitudes toward living. I'm a straight man and she's a gay woman 20 years older than me and we talk about human sexuality all the time. It's a very productive and enjoyable professional relationship, by and large.
But I do feel a bit guilty keeping this from her. She's well aware of my toxic past and I get the impression that much of her attitude toward me is based on fascination that I was able to conquer (well, apparently not entirely 8)), my heavy and various addictions, as well as the soul-crushing depression I've spent the past 3 years in.
Thoughts, anyone?