I'm the girlfriend of a man that thinks its amusing and totally okay to eat 4 or 5 10mg Valium's and get totally trashed and fuck everything up.
Not only does he eat an exorbitant amount of these fucking pills, but he mixes them with liquor and beer. No matter how many times I've asked him to stop and quit buying them and eating the shit out of them, he won't listen. It's not because I have a problem with the act of people taking something to relax, its the fact that these things are supposed to "relax" you but to me it seems they do the complete opposite. I see posts from people that put "LOL" or "LMAO" at the end of their story of all the disgusting shit they've done whilst in a Valium rage, and it's not remotely funny. It's scary and it's dangerous and it's a horrible feeling to dread and worry about your significant other coming home in fear of what he or she will do when they're high on these things. I've been thrown around the house, shit has been destroyed, he tried killing my fucking cats once. Are you serious? This shit is legal and anyone can basically go to their doctor, make up some story about anxiety, and get these with no problem, yet we aren't allowed to sit down and smoke a joint or grow a pot plant without worry of getting arrested? I've been with this man for 10 years, just deciding to up and leave him is not an option. He's not okay, and he never will be. He's an angry enough person on his own, he doesn't need 50mg of Valium exacerbating the situation. I've never met one person that has taken Valium and just chilled out and watched some movies, cleaned the house, then went to bed. It's not like that. I even tried flushing them down the toilet once, after he'd taken 4 of them. That was apparently a horrible idea because that was the night I ended up covered in bruises hiding in the corner while he gallivanted around the house, totally oblivious to what just happened. I'm over it. If you can handle your shit and you know what the outcome is, then fine, take your Valium and chill out. If you CAN'T handle your shit, have no clue whats going to happen, or already know from past experiences what happens when you take the shit, maybe its best that you don't do it. If you want to get that fucked up on benzos, go check yourself into a fucking nut ward and have them inject you countless times a day, and go tear their shit all up. Don't fuck with the people you love and care about just because you want a high for the night.