I'm not harming children, because loli's are drawings. And I can change as easilly as a gay person can turn straight. Well, I believe they can potentially. However, when ever I bring up the fact that I would have as easy a time doing that as a gay person would trying to turn straight. But I can already here the assholes saying that I'm comparing them.
The reason people object to you comparing homosexuality and child-pornography (which you are doing) is because one of them is okay and the other isn't. That might not seem fair to you, but this is an adult world. I've tried to explain to you why people deem one to be okay, and the other not. I'll try once more.
Homosexuality (the act) can be consensual and harmless.
Homosexuality (the lifestyle), likewise.
Pedophilia (the act) ruins children's lives.
Pedophilia (the lifestyle), likewise.
As for pornography, you're in denial about how promoting something as acceptable in society has an impact on how acceptable people deem it.
You've repeated, many times, that you're not doing any harm. But, really, you don't know that. You're just trying to convince yourself.
You literally are comparing them; you're making assumptions about what people think about that, but - either way - you're still doing it.
What about cocks do gay people find attractive? Since when do peoples sexuality become some logical process?
Although sexual desire is driven by the sub-conscious, it can be explored (logically).
And, although your question was - again - rhetorical, I'm going to answer you anyway.
I can't speak for everyone who finds cocks attractive, but I'll do my best.
The male physique is muscular and powerful (in comparison to the female).
Penises - when erect - are big throbbing muscles, bulging with veins.
Being fucked is - at least, to some extent - about being dominated; being vulnerable.
The male orgasm is explosive and animalistic.
Since the vagina is an internal organ, more attention (in terms of perceived beauty) is paid to the (non-genital) body.
Penises are more fun to play with than vaginas, IMO, from a purely objective standpoint.
Foreplay and oral sex are (potentially) better between men, but (penetrative) sex isn't.
If the male physique is muscular and powerful, the female physique is (comparatively) soft and submissive.
The nature of procreation forces women to take a (naturally) submissive role.
The vagina is not hard, like the penis; it is soft.
It is like a flower, rather than a spear.
Then there are feminine guys and ladyboys (the extreme of feminine guys), who have a mix of qualities.
And, varying degrees of masculinity in women.
Sometimes, it's exciting to "be the woman" (if you're a man)... or to "be the man" (if you're a woman).
Because, we recognize that there is something pleasing about dominating and being dominated.
Children, it seems to me, are the extreme of this. They are more feminine than masculine (regardless of gender), in the sense that: they do not have muscular physiques; they are smaller and weaker than adults (particularly adult male sexual partners); depending on their age, boys have higher pitched voices than men; and, they're (boys and girls) yet to (fully) develop body hair...
Women shave their legs to resemble younger women.
Youth is beauty: we can observe that everywhere.
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You ask whether or not sexuality is a logical process.
Well, maybe it isn't. But we can observe what turns us on and what doesn't.
I know what I find arousing about men; I know what I find arousing about women.
I'm asking you what - specifically - attracts you to children.
There must be something. Surely you've thought about it?
You're attracted to (or have been attracted to, in the past) both little boys and little girls.
So, what is the common denominator?
If gay guys are attracted to "cocks", as you observe.
Then what is a (non gender-specific) pedophile attracted to?
Vulnerability? Innocence? Weakness? Inexperience?
Do you have fears about being sexually inadequate with adult (read: experienced) partners.
Does (the idea of) sex with a child appeal to you (to some extent) because you can dominate them?
Are you, perhaps, sexualizing yourself as a child; sexualizing your innocence; trying to rationalize what(ever) happened to you?
It's a cop out to not attempt to answer these questions.
And, I don't see how you can look at pornographic imagery without imagining a sexual act (or, at least, thinking *something*).
What is going through your head when you jerk off to little kids?
What part of their body do you look at? (And how does it differ, anatomically, to adult bodies?)
I realize you're getting upset, and I'm sorry about that. (Truly, I am.)
But, I've treated you with respect throughout this thread.
I'd appreciate it if you honestly answer the questions.
If you haven't brought this stuff to the surface before, I want you to try.
But, of course, it's entirely up to you. (I'm just trying to help.)