Tonight is hard. Seems as if some of the physical stuff has crept back. RLS and anxiety is killing me tonight. Craving HARD. So strange because I was SO postive earlier. Sigh. I guess that's just how this whole thing goes... constant back and forth. Normal brain fighting with addicted brain.
That's what it is exactly, your brain has changed & you have created different pathways & reward centers. You have to create new pathways - which is what you ARE doing believe it or not. It's going to be a journey out of this whole & since everyone's brains are wired so differently nobody can tell you exacts. But you have to have faith. Be strong & don't give in. You have made it this far & you deserve better bc the way you were living before was no way to live. I know that you may think the way you feel now is also no way to live either, but, you are wrong. This is the yellow brick road to better days. Through pain & suffering comes better days, you have to believe that.
Don't listen to that negative script in your head any longer, you should be very proud of the work you have been doing & will continue to do.