but now I've got enough benzos to last me almost a year, at the rate i use them, I might as well see what the fuss is about with these RC's.
(In)famous last words, there.
Having a huge stock of benzos and getting into stims equals massive benzo habit and sudden shock at discovering the year-long supply of benzos lasted two months.
This is way too common. Hundreds of stories on here about others who crashed and burned from benzos.
It's extremely hard to keep any sort of control of your benzo use when you have lots of them at hand, and the stims will push your benzo intake up enormously.
I won't say what I think you should or shouldn't do. What's the point? I just got the shivers reading that line I quoted. I've never experienced anything like benzos in terms of a family of substances that are so insidious, you don't even notice what they do half the time you take them, you often forget dosing and then dose again, tolerance goes up so fast, etc. One thing you won't ever forget though is the withdrawals you go through if you build up a habit and then suddenly have to go without....