Just hypothetically let's say you... I mean your friend... no I mean you dammit... are getting a lot of feedback that indicates something contrary to what you believe. Yet one whom claims to have a firm grasp on reality yet refers to himself in the third person is slightly nuts. Here's the thing man... you seem set on this "fact" that you're desire to do it is caused by you. But you are your brain! Whoaaaaaa... dude! Yeah... it's far out man. Most of your brain has already done what it wants to do before you find out about it. It just tells you what it has done. When you add a chemical, a non-endogenous chemical, whether it's an opiate or an amphetamine, you're creating an environment which cannot exist without the drug.
Maybe it is complete honesty, maybe you've seen through the bullshit, the veils of lies, and can be completely right and honest. I rarely see, what appear to be, egomaniacal rantings, from people who are using drugs appropriately. Granted I don't associate with many baseheads these days. And granted all these posts are about your friend. I would pretty upset if I found out my friends spent all their free time writing bizarre, however flattering, posts on a drug website. So give him a break man. I realize you're pulling for him, but it's fucking creepy.
I think a key marker of addiction is physical side-effects. Any Bill Wilson ideology is complete bull-shit as well. Most of the assumptions made in AA were not true. Do you hit rock bottom before you stop drug use because if you stop you can't go lower? Do people have minor flings with a former substance of abuse then not touch it again? Yes. Do people who were former alcoholics learn to consume alcohol appropriately and do so for the course of their life? Why yes!
I also don't believe you have to hit rock bottom with addiction. It has more to do with how you view drugs. You're correct about that part. However, the biggest problem with AA is the transfer of dependence. Born-agains... Jesus what would you do? People need to deal with the core issue. External changes are fine, but the mind needs to be changed. Not just the stimuli but the course of thoughts. Bill Wilson spent his entire life playing the victim role, while he smoked himself to death, and cheated on his wife trolling AA meetings for mistresses. Not that that's a bad thing. I just think it's an ironic story.
Peace,
PL