SwingBreed
Bluelighter
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There is a rhythm beyond the thought or the action that is looping. Stop listening/obeying the thought or the action and pay attention to the experience of the rhythm that it belongs to.
There is a rhythm beyond the thought or the action that is looping. Stop listening/obeying the thought or the action and pay attention to the experience of the rhythm that it belongs to.
when i do nitrous (on top of another psych) i have this loop-related revelation: We're all stuck on repeat, moving forward slightly at the end of each repeat. We do the same things day in day out only improving or progressing so slightly compared to the amount of hum-drum activities we engage in every day. Gave me the aim of breaking out of this cycle, doing something radical and new, which i just havent gotten around to yet...
This repetition also draws big parralels with buddhism (which i've recently made part of my life), death-rebirth cycles with the aim of acheiving enlightenment thus breaking free of the cycle.
In over a decade of psychedelic experiences and reading others' reports I've not encountered or heard of anything like what's happening to me now. It’s not an eternal tailspin into the recesses of the psyche or LSD's thought loopty-loop psychosis. It’s not something I can’t stop thinking about because it’s just so damned intriguing or a perseverative behavior spurred on by compulsion. ...
To understand the nature of what I'll be describing more clearly imagine walking into a quiet empty room at 1 pm. A cuckoo clock whirs to life, startling you, and you twist your head to see it. It gives one quick “cuckoo.” Giggling at yourself, you watch as the tiny bird snaps back behind the doors of the clock. At 1 pm. and two seconds the clock's doors have just shut, yet suddenly you're struck with the same sense of surprise you had when you heard the mechanism first start 2 seconds ago. Less than half a second later the sensation of twisting your head to see the clock recurs. You experience vertigo because in truth you haven't physically moved a bit. Still standing there looking at the cuckoo clock’s closed doors you can almost see the bird pop out and almost hear it's chime. It's more than a vivid memory. What you're experiencing is so transporting that you feel at a far distance from the image of the clock that is actually present an arm's length before you now, like you're a step behind yourself and trailing in time. Expressionless, you feel a mild sense of relief followed by a short spike of elation and a blush spread across your face. This is what that laugh you had at yourself a moment ago would have felt like if you hadn't smiled. You're getting the first hints that something's seriously wrong. Now the muffled echo of that 2 second old laughter is mixed with brand new confusion, which will soon mount to dread. You turn to leave at 1 pm. and 4 seconds, yet as you take your first step you feel a part of you is still standing still, looking at the just closed doors of the clock... This is what's just happened to me.
Considering that psychedelics often cause temporal dilation and temporary alteration of working and short-term memory, this is common. Don't worry, you won't ever get 'stuck forever.'