I don't know how I'm unsure of the answer to that already. There is noooo way my body can hold up for much longer. I look very healthy but I'm not at all. Being off opiates makes them very dangerous if I ever use them, and I typically always go back.
These benzo doses are outrageous, it has been 12 hours and I am still sedated by those xanax's. Had a lot of amnesia. It was nice to have something other than etizolam had been so long, I was getting annoyed. It isn't the same at all. I can't be having panic attacks in interviews. I'm so bad in them that I got stuck here in life, highly educated with seemingly nothing to do that is of value to anyone else but myself if I'm fucked up enough to be able to crack a smile, to focus on something other than how much this sucks.