Regrets9995
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- Feb 27, 2017
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Half an year later after 0.6 binge...
No more DP/DR, short-memory much better if not almost back to normal, concentration somewhere the same. However I feel like my general intelligence is lower than before, I'm not as sharp as before, hard to express myself, my vocabulary is poor, recalling words, etc.
At this point I'm not sure if my recovery turned into self-obsession giving my false symptoms or maybe self-aware which was not existing before... However it feels very real to me that I'm not using my brain capacity at the same level. Any thoughts?
I can relate to this a lot, the self awareness can be very exhausting. Before I wouldn't consciously notice small changes in my state of mind or perception, now the slightest thing changes and I instantly notice. This is probably why we don't feel as sharp as we once were, a lot of our attention is directed to how we are feeling and not what we are doing. Also, i understand that it is good health to get tests and make sure everything is ok but surely that shouldn't be taking up all of your attention? Isnt that more detrimental to your health? Getting back into the world and focusing on the basics and approaching recovery in a more general way seems like a better way to go, other wise you are feeding the obsession searching for some hormonal imbalance that may have been there any way. Just doesn't seem productive in my opinion.